Oh dear, you've found the secret slime cave lair of Enforcer @ Draggian Universe where they put their awful little thoughts. Get out while you can. Established June 2024 as somewhere to put my angsty thoughts about how Falling In Reverse sucks other than the void and annoying my friends.
Enter at your own risk; this is where I put spur of the moment random nonsense, angst, and opinions to get them out of my brain. When I say slime, I mean slime. And possibly full on possession. There will be no content warnings.
The 50 most recent thoughts are being shown. A curated selection of old thoughts I thought were useful, funny, and/or interesting can be found here.
Clarity note: Timestamps on thoughts might not be accurate. I update from both my desktop and my phone. Desktop Librewolf thinks I'm on UTC, but my phone uses local time.
Mucus is weakness leaving the body, except that it ISN'T because you don"t feel better afterwards you just return to baseline and there are too many fucking rhinoviruses
This might be my least favorite kind of cold, and it's one I don't recall having before. Everything is draining into the back of my mouth, so blowing my nose doesn't work, nor does coughing to dislodge it. Drinking water or cough drops provide very short relief. That is known. Likewise, it making it very difficult to speak is known, but I shouldn't move another webinar.
What differentiates it from previous colds is that the for lack of a better term, boogers are much more solid, which adds further disruption of breathing / speaking and increases the general lowering of morale.
kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill YOU CAN'T kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill FUCK YOU
Slime in back of throat can't lie down, bdeathe, or dislodge by coughing. Can't wash down with water j hate this gey me out of here down a I can't
Sick again. Fucking disgraceful; this body is weak and does not fulfill my needs.
Song of the day (inasmuch as you can call this "day"): All Time Low ft. I Prevail - Hate This Song
Yesterday's SOTD: Pierce the Veil - A Match Into Water
Just once I want to have a meeting that's actually what I asked for without "concerns for me" trojan-horsed into it.
Why are we meeting about my academic progress and strategies for success. I've pretty much stopped speaking up in class unless it's on Teams and I can do so in chat or I'm answering a direct question. My grades are fine. I'm submitting work on time. What the fuck am I doing wrong.
Song of the day is the Rollercoaster The Musical song about the titular coaster from Phineas and Ferb. It was assorted PtV songs this morning, but that's the one that has stuck for the last 8 hours.
I wonder if I could get the benefits of a cough drop if I dissolved it in hot water / tea.
God damn it, housemate1 is making a video call so the WiFi got slow.
Wanna know why "learn to self host" isn't a useful piece of advice? If you don't have your own router and powerful hardware, self-hosting and torrenting aren't viable options, hence reason #N+1 why the "indie web" / Linux fandom / etcetera are not advocacy.
https://file.garden/ZvBqN3lQEnLVuczj/Ronnie_Gets_A_Flea_Bath.md.txt
been writing this to try to get back into the habit, since it's pure abstractly-horny fluff. Of course, because Ronnie is feral in wolf form, as soon as he shifts it becomes pure comedy.
Re: the cognitive faculties question...well, he's closer to a Pokemon than to any living animal. Take from that what you will, in terms of whether Wolf Ronnie is intentionally being difficult because he knows he's adorable and can get away with it / finds it amusing as Ronnie or is just being a dog.
Guess the last segment is Arlo and Wolf Ronnie cuddling until they wake up and the latter shifts back with daylight, naked but thankfully parasite free.
I have not willingly selected an apple device since 2020 and will never buy one for myself again; this is my mom’s old one that she offered me to use to take notes in class
Hate, detest, LOATHE the new iPad OS; looks ugly as shit and broke split screening so I can’t do glimgloom anymore and shit doesn’t scale right in windows
Seems Go Fest this year is to specifically be themed after the team leaders. Which is both good and bad for me. Good in that IT'S THEM IT'S MY GUYS and I can actually add something to the archives: after Go Fest happens, I can sludge through a Twitter proxy and PokeMiners' raw data to put stuff up. Bad in that if the team and/or Go Rocket leaders are canonically doing something specific during Go Fest, there's less room for fanfic nonsense, although I didn't have any ideas besides displaced from time preschooler Zane so.
If they release tangible merch of the team leaders, especially Spark and/or Arlo, or a patch of the Team Instinct emblem, I want it. If they had plushies, I would probably get all 3 of them and also Arlo. They are a set, do not separate.
Even if she had a citation other than "I seen it" for the those dang phones / parents don't raise their kids / diagnosis rates / etc., I feel like if you are teaching an educational support class, you maybe shouldn't be training students in that class to hold kids in contempt and expect them to be "bad"? While simultaneously saying "there are no bad kids"...
my absolute contempt towards the concept of "ipad kids" etcetera is that, well, I have seen actual nominally peer reviewed papers claiming that "digital autism" is a thing. "Kids these days", especially in conjunction with tech / media, is a baked-in ableist concept. Wanna know who ELSE is using "there's more and more X nowadays and it's a crisis" as motivation? It's not folks who'd approve of educational support, or Canada, to put it mildly. She's, like, one step removed from "bad parenting and phones make your kids have ODD / ADHD / etc so we should start beating them again", and I don't think that's what she intends.
Also, we need to take into account the same factor as more kids getting diagnosed -- besides just better diagnosis, how much of that is kids who are born prematurely or otherwise with risk factors for that sort of thing are actually surviving now?
It's the same shit as "seatbelts cause more car accident injuries" -- because folks are getting injured as opposed to dead. I suspect it's the same thing with childhood disability rates and (if it actually exists which I'm not convinced it does) increased rates of "misbehavior".
I heavily doubt that the rates of "misbehavior" (also, I hate when they just use the word "behavior" to define "undesirable behavior" -- everything someone does is behavior!) in schools have actually increased; they're just being noticed better and we don't brush it off as "being abused builds character" anymore.
Also, how much of that is just that NB's population has increased, so there are more kids in school buildings? I want to see the rate of "misbehavior" per capita, and also if what the schools define as "misbehavior" has changed. Saying "there's more behavior than ever before (because of those damned phones and parents don't discipline their kids anymore)" is misleading at best and encouraging folks to come in with bad expectations at worst.
My classmates ended up parroting "kids aren't raised anymore" bullshit in sociology on Monday, which is fucking heartbreaking to witness for folks intending to go into education.
didn't get to sleep until 3am because hot and spicy noodles from shoppers gave me digestive troubles
ah yes, shepherds. they herd the sheps
apparently, at least for male lawyers, in French, "lawyer" (avocat) and "avocado" (also avocat), are spelled and gendered the same. I guess the idea is that you can determine which of those you mean from context, but my picture is an avocado in a suit.
Verse's Nature: Adamant (likes Spicy, dislikes Dry)
Verse's Characteristic: Good endurance
Theoretical game moveset: Safeguard, Dragon Claw, Brutal Swing, Iron Tail
Oh, and I've decided to call the city in which Zahori and Verse live Barrett City, after Barrett's Privateers, the sea shanty-style folk song about Halifax I did not realize wasn't a real sea shanty until last week. The region will remain unnamed besides "coastal and north of Unova", but I'm pretty sure that all of the Maritimes would be one region if there were to be a Pokemon game there, and just worldbuilding-wise in terms of population.
Fun fact: the bit about how telepathy helps a lot with language barriers was not in my original vision, but I realized while writing it down that there is no way someone raised in a religious ethnonationalist cult in Sinnoh would know either English or French. Adds realism or something. And the "Sinnoh-like climate" is true. While looking up stuff about Red'ville before I moved, I learned from one of the weather sites that the furthest away place with the most similar climate is Sinnoh's inspiration in the northernmost Japanese islands.
Giratina's "reverse" motif is also canon; the only reason it didn't get syncretized with Ronnie is that the Cognitive Distortion World came first. Although I guess it kinda indirectly got syncretized with proto-Ronnie by way of EE, but that is a different thing.
All of this is plausible to exist within a "let's unpack this" version of Sinnoh lore, because L:A is (probably unintentionally) imperialist as fuck and I don't know what interpretation there is of "the region was renamed from its original indigenous name to the name of a monotheist deity" that isn't religious nationalism. Telepathic humans and spirit channelers are canon as well; channeler was the default trainer class for Ghost types and implied to be possessed by their Pokemon.
I was also reading some Wikipedia pages about horrifying topics in sociology of religion and co-opting of pagan symbols by hate groups this morning, which is not unrelated to my vision. The Linear World is not canon. I just realized I needed a name for Not The Distortion World and "real world" or "Pokemon world" aren't what it would be called from a DW perspective.
Zahori has the same problem with housing as Spark and Arlo: most rentals and apartments, if they allow Pokemon at all, have size limits, and legendaries and mythicals are categorically banned. Even though it's true, "this is my service Giratina" won't work too well.
Not sure what excuse they would have to meet, but I kinda want Zahori and Verse to meet Arlo and Jet. Arlo's research interests are dragons, form changes, and humans developing Pokemon qualities. Jet's major, which I need to write the canonization for with her expanded intro, is assistive tech. So they would both find this extremely cool.
For tattoo purposes, I was drawing a Giratina with a broken chain collar, to make it more me (plus the red chain is quite relevant in Sinnoh legendary lore), and playing around with scars and stuff so it isn't just a Pokemon, had a vision, and I have a new sona now. x2, kinda.
https://rentry.co/monctongiratina2026
They're a Falling In Reverse Giratina who lives in Pokemon!Moncton (or maybe Halifax? It doesn't really matter on a Pokemon region scale; all of the maritimes would be one region were they in a game) with his girlfriend who is a guy, after fleeing an extremely project 2025 coded version of the Church of Arceus. I never said I was subtle.
In my defense, "almighty Sinnoh" from L:A and that being the name of both the region and the deity does accidentally imply the existence of Pokemon religious nationalism, so...
Dudesverse canon, kinda, since it uses the Dudesverse's version of Sinnoh history and cosmology and my idealized AU of Pokemon North America, nothing in it isn't possible in the Dudesverse, and it fits the tone, but a non-trainer living in Not Moncton / Halifax has no reason to interact with the Dudesverse cast. It does mean that I have an explanation for why no one is that concerned about their partner being a Giratina-O; they probably got it at Go Fest in New York. (Or Wild Area in Vancouver which I was so helpfully informed of in February. Evidently Pokemon Go has an odd definition of "upcoming event in your area"...)
I don't think that "they would get bullied" is a valid excuse to prevent your child from having options. That's the same excuse used for torturing autistic kids into suppressing stimming and natural expression of emotion / self-regulation.
The best defense against damage from bullying is strong self-concept and being in a supportive social environment otherwise, and you are not going to get that if you are being forced into a box against your will.
You can't control what other people do, so I don't think that forcing your child into conformity with the excuse of "I just don't want them to get made fun of" is productive or helpful for anybody.
song of the day: My Chemical Romance - It's Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Fucking Deathwish
or if dying is your latest fashion it's both aaayyy
I wonder if coloring shampoo for black would work. The dye has solidly worn off, but I don't have a good way to reapply it and don't want to pay salon coloring prices. I think I could do the black myself via dunking my head into a tub, and then maybe foil off the bleach / red section from there, but in order to not make a mess, I'd need to do that outside. That ain't happening until my hair wouldn't freeze. But they do sell color correction shampoo at Jean Coutu / Pharmasave and that might get me the slight darkening. I know that non-black coloring shampoos don't work on me; I've tried them before and the base color is close enough to black that there was no result.
The creature known as "the Ronald" is a known carrier for every disease. The recommendation of the Bureau of Edge is that citizens not touch, move, look at, or acknowledge the existence of this creature in any way.
Other sources may recommend killing any Ronalds you see on your property on sight. Do not do this. If not carried out by a professional, this is both inhumane and ineffective and may contaminate organisms or surfaces with slime.
I don't know when Subway added crispy onions, but I approve. They improve the texture of "all the vegetables and avocado" (this one has the patty, but I don't like the veggie patties and cheese + avocado have the same benefit) and also, spite.
https://youtu.be/hz31wnOk9gY?si=Cpb7sds45pRy5L7i
New Brunswick has nice...trees. (And the entire province is indeed below the population of just one of the Toronto suburbs.) Moncton is pretty nice, though.
The only thing outside my bus window is said nice New Brunswick trees and the occasional billboard to experience Shediac. Unsure what to experience, because there is nothing in Shediac? I could go there for a day or weekend trip, but I might as well go to Moncton if I'm getting a bus anyway so why bother.
I dislike US/UM precisely because they decided to completely sanitize Lusamine and just make it about the ultra beasts, which ruins the core emotional arc of the story and also weakens the core themes of the region and that togetherness and family and shit that Alola / Aloha IRL means.
Now, Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon LOOK beautiful, I like the Eevium Z and Necrozma plots (Necrozma is a poor little light puppy who needs a hug), and being able to play with stray Pokemon on the street, Ultra Warp Ride, and Mantine Surfing are a lot of fun. I just hate what it did to the main plot.
If you drop the ultra beast bit, Lillie and Gladion's arc is about kids who were treated as an extension of their self-absorbed abusive parent being rejected and deemed subhuman in favor of creatures she can control when they expressed themselves as individuals, and we get to know enough about Lillie beforehand to see how much that actually hurt. N is (a) groomed to be the heir of a generic supervillain organization which is entirely fantastical in stakes and (b) let's be honest, his basically being raised by Pokemon would yield the response of "god I wish that were me" from most fans, the matter that we never get to know him and the whole truth and ideals and Pokemon PETA bits are bullshit and sloppily handled besides.
For my rant about why Pokemon Black and White's lore sucks, inquire to this miscellaneous post. I do like that N is an autistic twink who likes math and has scene hair, though.
https://draggianuniverse.neocities.org/miscellanea/truthandideals
how much of my attachment to pokemon sun and moon is because team skull enforcer (canonical rank) Gladion looks like That and how these games coincided with when I realized something was Dreadfully Wrong will be left as an exercise for the reader
...new headcanon that he's trans, since he could very easily be a twin to Lillie, haha funny emosexuality, and also it makes the whole thing with how after he and Type:Null left, Lillie was specifically focused upon as the traditionally feminine golden child way worse. Also, Team Skull is pretty damned queer, textually, because they are the closest thing to a realistic "American" gang Pokemon can ever have including all of them being abused / poor / did not fit into the Alolan Pokemon trainer economy kids. Plus, like, Type:Null / Silvally's whole thing could be read as a trans allegory.
ya know, this probably isn't subtext that the target audience for this game would pick up on, but in case they weren't already villainous team coded enough, the intro for Aether Paradise that they're protecting Corsola from being "terribly over-hunted" by their...natural predator establishes Lusamine's whole thing. Her standards of "conservation" apply solely to things she thinks are cute, and anything that ceases to be cute will be harshly punished.
A core theme of this game that I fucking love is that the cruelty of nature and living in harmony with that vs. trying to force it still applies in the world of Pokemon, and it does the best job of actual bio content with its invasive species theming of any Pokemon game. The Pokedex is fucking brutal and I love it. I've seen a theory that it's Rotom being a ghost and trolling you, but also, it makes the world feel so alive in the "sex and death" sense. So, while this series has been guilty of "all Poison types are inherently evil" before and after S/M, I think in this case it is actually supposed to be foreshadowing that Aether does not operate in good faith, given the core themes of the rest of the game and the ultimate reveal. Still infinitely better than Black and White; I am sorry, Ghetsis is a generic supervillain which makes any attempt at pathos from abuse fall short, and we never really get to know N.
ingredients established for emo party
I usually choose Litten, but Decidueye has the edge hoodie so. I knew I wanted Lycanroc Midnight, so figured I would coordinate the whole gang. Also all Pokemon I haven't used before except Decidueye and Alo-Grimer -> Muk.
I have not tried to do a themed party before so this is a new thing for me. Also decided that I won't use Z moves to make it more interesting.
I <3 carabiner clips
Song of the day: NEFFEX - Badass
damn I have not heard this song in...6 years? why the fuck
Oh, and a mildly interesting observation from this week of which I was reminded by signs in the airport bathroom: the Toronto subway does not do bilingual announcements, which surprises me and I find mildly alarming. TBH, they should probably also include Spanish and Chinese based on what I heard within downtown Toronto. I am pretty sure anything federal is legally required to include French, so I guess the subway is province or city?
Anyway, in the shower last night, I attempted to translate what the spiel should be.
Le prochaine arrêt (there is a word covered by Lingo Legend for a train station but I forgot what it was) es [station].
Sommes arrivée a [station].
Les ports vont ouvrir a droite.
Proud of myself for inferring ouvrir from ouvert, which per signs for the wheelchair controls in the bathroom, is correct.
maman, j'ai vomi
✨🎀🌺~ I hate everything about everything ~🌹🎶✨
I'm fucking awake because my fucking flight is at 7:50 so I can fucking get on the fucking bus after it lands. There are high fucking odds I cannot get on the fucking bus and trust it to fucking get me back because it is likely to be fucking snowing again. Fuck.
I mean, the platonic love of my life's flight is at 10:30 so it isn't like we could have gone on another silly little field trip today had I gotten a later flight but ugggghhhhh
You know how sometimes you look at your hand, or pull something out of your bag, and it is inexplicably covered in black gunk? And you have no idea where it came from because there is nothing in your bag or on your person that sheds said gunk?
I assume that it is a side effect of everything I possess being black and that something is shedding but it also might be the slime.
Song of the day: The Used - I'm A Fake
forgot the word "slices" and had to have my backup explain to the pizza man what I meant by "two sectors"
they look so fucking bad
pokemon is not even pretending to be anything but a machine to make plushies anymore, and squishmallows look better than this
also the dog is giving extremely sketchy vibes in regards to being "AI" slop generated
Song of the day: falling in reverse - fashionably late (song)
we are in Toronto and we are going to have a good ass fucking time (which will probably not contain any fucking of the ass)
taco bell is my hearthome
yesterday's song of the day: falling in reverse - I'm not a vampire
today's song of the day: ke$ha - kiss and tell
Peas porridge hot
Peas porridge cold
Peas porridge in the pot, 9 days old
Some like it hot
Some like it cold
Some like it in the pot, 9 days old
At least in the version of Canadian French used by Lingo Legend, the English loanword "chum" is translated as "boyfriend". Something I would love to know the cultural context for. There has to be some fanfic use for this...
Today I learned that Cookie Clicker's develop Orteil literally named himself "toe". Or at least I assume it's a pseudonym. And he's French so he knows what he's doing.
Unsure how I feel about the rounded restyling on mobile waterfox's latest update, but it does seem to be fast3r
I noticed this back when I ended up stuck here waiting for Brady's friends to leave and doing, like, 7 or 8 total songs, with filling TDIMIY with all my withering contempt -- it WORKS and it hits the attitude and I can basically lash out at people and have them enjoy it and the fact that I can channel Ronnie so damned well is a bit scary.
Theme is 90% by Enforcer; the rest is thoughts.page default. Kick ass, take names, fuck Ronnie Radke (not literally).
