enforcer's slimyboy thoughts

be in a bilingual province > what French bullshit is this?

...the sound of footsteps and wrappers opening is also worse than usual so I guess today is just a bad sensory day. Think I slept pretty well, save having unpleasant dreams, and I had downtime yesterday, so idk why. Guess it's just like tjat

dunno why, but hearing the NPC chatter is really grating on me today, sensorially. I don't think they're especially loud, nor are the suburban bullshit topics (grocery prices and praising Temu) especially troubling, so the problem is probably me. Glad I stuck earbuds in my bag for when I'm just waiting. Session starts at 1:30.

song of the day: Silverstein - Stress (promise the link will actually be a song and not my favorite guys this time)

I awaken, after unpleasant dreams. Nothing especially fun to describe. Just unpleasant. Salient detail I recall is getting into a tense and dissatisfying argument about police brutality with my dad + grandfather.

@when the wajas waja just right

my decisions are vibes based; my word is law (seeing as I am literally a divine being who presides over vibes)

je suis un bête

I pass pretty damned well (have gotten misgendered [well, inasmuch as getting parsed as a pronoun I will NEVER accept -- I don't PREFER he/him unless I'm doing a bit, but it's acceptable and I love masculine honorifics and person terms. get good wiggles whenever someone calls me sir in public] a single digit # of times since moving, and all of those cases I was either being intentionally androgynous or hadn't gotten a haircut in a while), but I'm still not sure what to do with my towel when I get out of the shower.

I know that unless they're trying to look feminine, men don't cover their tits, but I don't feel like just wrapping it around my waist has enough support. I've never figured out how to fold it so it stays up without holding. Also, my hair absorbs water so the part of me that gets dripped upon is my shoulders and upper chest, and a waist towel doesn't help with that. My legs tend to dry pretty fast. When I'm by myself and crotch coverage isn't a concern, I put the towel like a cloak / cape over my shoulders, but that isn't viable in shared settings. In the frathouse, I've just been wearing a bathrobe. Avoids the issue entirely, or having to explain scars, but I don't think most guys are that observant, nor do I look near as much like I got cut in half as I did in August.

when i say "cute" it's not in a sexy sense it's in a "sad little kitty" sense. i want to keep him as a pet and clicker train him to stop being That

as opposed to the modern version whom i've given up on and i just want to eat him and absorb all of his knowledge and FIR powers in a vaguely horny way (or forcibly take control of his body and start fixing him myself. either works.)

this one looks way better than the one from 2012. good ref for the neck tats too

source

hey, guy re: craig "talking shit while someone else is in jail"

(a) there is little to no evidence for craig "talking shit" at all -- various ephemera put the blame on Robert, Monte, and/or Omar, and most of the big ones come from Max. So literally everyone but Craig.

(b) as we learned from our good pal in February, Ronnie DID have heroin in prison so the big one isn't even wrong

(c) what did you expect, for the rest of the band to be unemployed for up to 4 years? they had dates planned!

(d) it is no longer 2008 grow up

honestly that's some of the least feral / floofy he ever looks; that almost passes for a human being. still soft though

I think I have the OG arrest video from Yewchube saved, but I haven't watched it because that feels like it crosses a line. Same reason I don't summarize / snark on the prison stuff in ICE save where it directly relates to the band: the stuff from Feb is relevant because it contradicts / expands upon the folklore of FIR's formation, but if it isn't music related, Ronald's imprisonment / drug problem / family members / etcetera are none of my business. I'm a historian and analyst of band history and fanbase folklore, and that is a living human being's trauma and he deserves to share as much about it as he feels comfortable with. However, blatantly omitting who made FIR possible, that I'm willing to talk about. and how pinchable-cheeks fluffy CUTE he is

now, he has also done NOTHING to meaningfully address his trauma in the past 16 years, and no longer has an excuse to be an asshole because of it. it was never an excuse, but like the comments say, stop boasting around like (a) you just got out and (b) you didn't get nailed for refusing to even pretend to try to abide by the terms of your probation, which were VERY generous 'cause of how white, semi-famous, and cute you are

if you are still acting like a fresh wound 16 years later the problem is you, and also, generally speaking traumatized folks don't brag about their trauma like it's the coolest thing to ever happen to them...and continue to do the same thing that got them into prison to start with

anyway, hehe fluffy wanna pet

wallflowers, wallflowers, growing up so high

I was the victim but never fucking died

Post to my bro Ronnie's dash

He has no relations

Tik and Tok and suck my cock

And wave to the congregation

"Look, buddy, I'll play with you tonight. We've gotta be professional today, so keep your opinions on how the best scene guys are all married to yourself!"

I love licking condiments off knives; makes me feel so damned edgy :K

fates / the ronald isn’t in control of the body but I still feel his presence. it’s nice. think wajas helps us bond

wondering if instead of walein for codestones, I should be using daily BD on kreludan defender to get tokens to gamble for a varwolf transmog...may be faster than waiting for prices to drop, although I'm still hoping for a morphing potion with some event or advent this year

ee killed me in 2019; I'm here because I was too stubborn to stay dead, hence being an undead demon badass

apparently I say fuck too often 2 link on chicken smoothie, even with a landing page...perhaps I will make a page isolated from everything else for just my basic OC info 4 that purpose. or I won't

look on teh brightside @ least being extremely sick and it worsening over the past 4 days means I have no need of eyeliner

gods give me the strength to not make a she/her they/them cool hat but it's all Ronnie (floofy, fashionably late, 2024 cowboy hat era)

remember, kids, chatbots are inextricable from the world's worst humans. the same people who want all thought output funneled through them also do not want anyone except their rich white customer base to exist

it is impossible to call yourself any kind of progressive and be pro-"AI" in good faith

skin is failing to contain the evil

mom, stop trying to set me up with tx2. he seems like a nice kid, but his music isn't that good

see, I've never been drunk but I know that I don't want to be because I do have a solid frame of reference for what being hungover would feel like; it's just sensory overload and nausea for neurotypical folks who were born on time, so no thanx. I don't think any debauchery I could do whilst drunk is enough to make that worth it, seeing as I get hungover after spending time at a bar or concert even if I'm not.

insert relevant falling in reverse reference here

knocks back a glass of human blood > if I'm gonna feel like shit in the morning anyway, I might as well have a good reason

yk how vampire the masquerade critters and their ilk have a single stat for both self care / self control and the ability to pass as not being an unholy abomination who wants to eat people? I think that's the stat that's been dropping all winter.

get WRECKED whatnot losers

if you are financially supporting ronald in 2026, especially for something with ZERO relation to anything FIR music related, you deserve whatever happens to you.

I have told myself that I am not going to do "kid learns to control their oozings" arcs with Zane, but this just popped in:

"Why can't I go in the yard? Uncle Ronnie does!"

"...that's because he's a dog. Dogs and Pokemon can go outside. People can't."

"But he's not a dog ALL the time!"

...

"What do you mean, I need to be toilet trained?"

if anyone asks me what I did this weekend I should probably lie

Nobody seems to be naming their pets "ronnieradke[word]" / "ronnie_radke[word]" / "ronnie_radke_[word]" / "ronnieradke_[word]", so based on what strings have worked, I'm going to try all numbers 100-1000 (I already did numbers 1 through 100 and relevant years) on each of those and after that, say that I'm done.

If I want anything more interesting, I need to either make it myself (which lacks the historical significance) or hope someone has that for trade, which unless MaxGreenIsLove's owner mails me back probably won't happen.

given that I can't open too many tabs at once without getting access denied, decided the best cost / benefit was to manually search obvious That One variants (found some cute usernames but no adoptable pets) and then to tileset for ronnieradke / ronnie_radke versions, because if I can find ONE I'll be satisfied.

cute usernames containing obvious That One ronnies I can't have:

emo_isnt_a_sin

blackthornedroses

oli_bmth

mawiiradke

untaken neopet names nobody should create (although ronniecore isn't bad and I do use that to make fun of both him and -core aesthetics, both of which I detest for different reasons...):

ronniescene

ronniecore

ronniereverse

ronnievampire

ronnieghost

ronnieemo

ronniespirit

ronniedemon

ronniedevil

ronnieevil

ronniegod

ronnieetf

ronnieescape

ronniefate

ronniefalling

ronniefall

ronniethefate

ronniemax

ronniesituations

ronnie_in_reverse

Also, I spent positive guidance today looking through Lost and Pound and apparently, at some point since the last time I checked, "Ronnie" became a stickable string at least in lowercase. Previously, Ron and Ronald were but that wasn't.

Now, the monologue did bring up "if you got a pet named some version of Ronnie Radke, what would you do with it? You probably can't draw them with Ronnie features, and you know you can't discuss their inspiration beyond the abstract concept of EtF / FIR."

I told it that it would be better if I had that name than someone who'd use it for evil.

"There's nothing you can use that for that ISN'T evil!"

depression rates have a lot more to do with the planet being on fucking fire than with phones, lisa

what matters is what is being said not the platform on which it happens. honestly, I don't think that "cyberbullying" is a useful term. just say what it is e.g. verbal abuse, bigotry, or sharing inappropriate information

Not convinced the black grey concealing shampoo stuff isn't just pre-mixed dye and developer...which is still worthwhile if it works at all (I only need like 10 degrees of value to get it from natural to "clearly some sort of subculture that wears black". I looked up the units; they are based on cylindrical angles so that's appropriate and while HSV is a crappy color space for perception, I am very familiar with it from digital art so.) because it's cheaper by volume than a one use dye kit or a bottle + developer for a larger quantity.

gender: Facebook gender neutral rock star emoji

I can not blame them for their tattoo choice; for all its being probably one of the worst things of the century thus far Facebook does have the coolest dragon emoji.

it's neat how many platforms agree that the genderless edgy hairstyle is some version of emo bangs. and comparing the intentionally ambiguous versions to various forms of ronnie..

https://emojipedia.org/singer#designs

can't blame my bro for no longer trying to pass as a human being since the divorce. after all I'm not

window sex pee

fatez;// startin 2 think we wolf out wit the full AND new moon

😈☠️👹🤘🫀🧑🏽‍🎤🐺🐺🐺🔥

why is there no werewolf emoji

an actual DM I am sending to someone on Neo I've seen around the art chat. the fact that I've been thinking about this random pet I saw as someone's active they impulse adopted for over a year is true.

"Uh, hi. I don't know if we've really talked before, but I've seen you around the Art Chat and I've been lowkey obsessed with your pet MaxGreenIsLove for over a year now, because his name is a reference to Escape the Fate, my band special interest since 2022, and his birthday's from their most interesting era. I've literally never found any other pets onsite that reference Escape the Fate and/or their spinoff Falling In Reverse except him and my own, and also, the guy he's named after is the prettiest human being I've ever seen.

I don't know if you're into pet trading, but I absolutely adore MaxGreenIsLove and would be interested in trading for him if you're willing to part with him -- I have an FFQ and up to 30 million Neopoints available for a custom on a pound or newly created pet (so I could make you a replacement Werelupe), or could offer my lab pet (with pretty good strength and HP from years of zapping) SO_LEGIT or anyone on popularmonster except Chlora_Phil or TrippFreeze, or the custom on them.

If you're not into pet trading, no worries. Sorry about the unsolicited mail, and give Max some headpats on my behalf. (if you've got a design for him, I could totally give you free art of him mashed up with the OG guy / band if you want)"

no, I don't know how I'll reconcile this one and (created by moi) ViolentNewMax coexisting if this actually works. (VNM was created last year in hopes that either the holiday dream pet giveaway would work or Varwolf morphing potions would eventually exist, and now they do! Unfortunately they cost a good 10 times the amount of NP I have at present so I'm waiting for them to drop. I have a UC pet style for him at the ready so I can give Sparkleronnie a little Neopets-only AU friend.)

prismatic onyx: adoring valentine varwolf

varwolves are 90% uncustomizable because like vandagyres, they basically can't wear clothing that was released before they were, so there's no reason for him not to be UC and also !!! look at it

the very tentative lore explanation I have for how exactly sparkleronnie and werewolf Max can coexist, without it interfering with Arlo, is that due to weird animum side effects from both their souls being on the same contract with the devil, Max also ended up being a werewolf by accident, and even though human Ronnie and Max broke up in this AU, dog Max wants to do cute dog couple things with wolf Ronnie, which Arlo is fine with because wolf Ronnie isn't sapient so is more of his pet than anything

so when they respectively transform they hang out and cuddle and stuff, and then return to their respective human love interests before the sun comes up

sparkleronnie doesn't meaningfully remember what he does when transformed, and while he's still Arlo's dog, is just a dog in were form, so no one here is sapient enough for this to be cheating. (and also, Arlo would be totally okay with sharing including with human Max.)

really, because none of his...ronnie is neo-safe, including the name of escape the fate's first album, sparkleronnie literally only exists as a neopet to be dressed up in cute clothes and played with, which is actually quite enjoyable. i wish there were a pokemon amie like feature that let you pet your neopets

anyway i want to get him a little friend, which I can as soon as I can afford a varwolf morphing potion. i'm hoping that new-tnt is nice enough to include one with this year's advent calendar or maybe faerie festival

my love for violent bounce / people like you is indescribable by philosophy or science; it's so much fucking fun and is even better once you know it's about ronnie (and it's very clear that they understand his vibe and it cuts pretty deep -- the unreleased when ronnie met sally is even harsher. and all of this still applies perfectly to FIR 13 years later...)

yes, I recently encountered someone on Neocities who attributed folks being unwilling to switch to Linux being because they're "unwilling to learn / deal with minor inconveniences" and also American capitalism. While being incredibly condescending in their "guides".

Bricking your computer, or being unable to access software you need for school or work, is not a "minor inconvenience" especially if you only have one device.

you know, the fact that making Linux install media requires (a) fast internet so you can download or torrent ISOs and (b) in many cases, more than one computer renders it inaccessible to a lot of users.

If you only have one computer or don't have fast Internet, not only might you be unable to download and install Linux at all, if something goes wrong you're screwed. Speaking from experience, even for Mint and Ubuntu, documentation is frequently unclearly written, condescending, contains commands or statements of program functionality that don't work (a random ModTheSims forum post claims Sims 2 runs on WINE. Testing, and WINE's documentation, says it doesn't.), and/or nonexistent. And that's for noob-friendly distributions.

Don't blame folks not switching on them being wimpy American capitalists or on "being unwilling to learn" or being "unwilling to face minor inconveniences" when you're the ones making that information hard to learn. If your response to a noob asking a question on the biggest forums for noob-friendly distributions is "if you didn't want to configure settings, you should go back to Windows like the baby you are!", don't be surprised when they decide that Linux isn't worth the risk. Especially if they only have one computer, so can't do their school or work if something goes wrong.

And that's not even getting into how for certain forms of hardware, there are no Linux drivers so you may fully brick your computer and won't be warned about that, and how the Linux fandom seems actively opposed to making options to make emulators actually work or improving compatibility with industry-standard software and file formats so folks CAN use it for school or work. Probably because making documentation people outside the Linux fandom can understand, not being mean to recent converts, and programs for things people who don't compute for fun use their computers for doesn't look impressive to other Linux fandomites, and it's all subcultural posturing to see who can look the most cool and FOSS-virtuous.

You can call your OS a revolution, or a change in the ecosystem of tech, when you show me you actually care about people who don't already use it.

Remembered that I ordered some emosexual flag stickers a while back because I wanted one for my laptop, but couldn't get less than 12. I don't need 12 of them, so I saved a few for me including the proof of concept and wrote my website URL on the rest then stuck them in my bag. I can use them to cover racist graffiti if I can't remove it, and put them in places where sticker tagging is accepted and encouraged like edgy venue bathrooms.

I need a better KeePass client on my phone...DX hasn't worked for autofill in months and has been increasingly unstable. Is Keepassium available for Droid? I like it on iOS.

I just use local files and copy from my computer every few months because the cloud is other people's computers and I don't trust them.

"Sci-hub's new bot, unlike old ones, doesn't hallucinate because it's based on real papers!"

..."hallucination" is an inherent part of how LLMs work. They don't understand fact checking. Even if you don't have general Internet training, they still only understand papers as words in sequence and don't understand how units scale or what research methods are plausible for what.

Also, "every paper on sci-hub" is everything that had a DOI before 2021. That's going to include studies with flawed methods, that were later retracted, or have become outdated, as well as every field of study with drastically different goals and scales of plausibility. A bot doesn't know the difference between a paper on child psychology and a paper on robotics; all it knows is what words are probabilistically likely to appear in the same places as your user's question.

So any word with multiple meanings will probably still produce hallucinations -- if I ask about pythons, do I mean the snake or the programming language? Even if its only data is peer reviewed papers, an LLM that only exists in the world of text doesn't know that those are different things and that research methods and stats for one don't apply to the other!

E.g. -- https://www.aiweirdness.com/how-to-get-ai-to-confuse-a-shark-with-a-clam/

And even if it somehow has been trained to tell the difference between different fields of study even when they use the same vocabulary, there are still a lot of dubious peer reviewed papers out there and on sci-hub, and a bot generating likely text isn't going to care that something had a small sample size, poor methodology, or was based on misleading assumptions.

No matter what your training data is, using a tool that generates text based on what was most likely is not going to accurately retrieve information because that isn't what it's for.

Disappointed.

so apparently as of 2024, the same species of caecilian that might be venomous (or at least has structures developmentally and anatomically analogous to snakes' venom glands) also makes something functionally and biochemically similar to mammal milk from their cloaca, and their babies make high-pitched baby noises when they're hungry.

someone needs to tell these amphibians to let up and save some room for the rest of us

of course, the only info about the milk thing is a paywalled NYT article and a paywalled paper, and stuff from after 2022 isn't reliably on Anna's Archive / Sci-Hub / etc, so I don't know if I can classroom embed this.

New Bureau of Edge memo. This is some raw paracosmic sh#t (censoring 'cause it's funny) that dates back 10+ years. You might find some retro Windows and Pokemon Go fixation content if you know where to look... still unsure what the future of the Bureau is given how the Ronnie Slime bit is no longer that interesting. FIR has stopped being fun (JUST DIE ALREADY -- but I still wanna be there to witness every step of their destruction) and my personal slime infection developed sentience.

The origins of the animum colors are with Massive Multiplayer Crossover Paracosm MMORPG Microsoft Start, with later refinement via Kiri!Canon Pokemon Go. Hence red, yellow, blue, and green. XP and I got turquoise / cyan as the masters of reality because we're so damned special and XP was totally a sona. Magenta is a, well, Pokemon Magenta / EE era invention, and Purple was introduced in 2022 with my proto-Dudesverse fixation on Arlo and Shadow Pokemon.

I don't literally believe in animum, exactly, and there are some blatantly fictional elements in here e.g. its integration with Neopets and Pokemon, but this stuff is...not NOT my cosmology IRL? As far as I'm concerned, the conceptual embodiment / demon king / was possessed by EE, possessed / killed her right back and took her job thing is not a metaphor. Neither is the snake person part. Basically, this is the result of 11 years of refining my Microsoftness -> Instinct Vibes based fixation-spirituality with easier to take seriously terminology. It finally manifested in cohesive write downable form during my nap today, so I woke up and dispensed this for 3 straight hours.

URL: https://draggianuniverse.neocities.org/bureau/portal/files/spectrum

(Libre)Office compatible document (in case you don't want to read 7,000 words on a fake terminal layout for some reason): here (hosted on File Garden)

your horoscope for today is 3

friendly reminder that the core precept of Edge is challenging boundaries and the status quo, which anything based on stolen, search-optimized slurry does not do. any use of "generative" "AI" means you forfeit any claim to Edge or subcultures thereof and are also going to hell when or before you die