enforcer's slimyboy thoughts

gotta get unshifted enough that i can sleep because there is literally no comfortable way to lie with both a giratina hindquarters and back pain. best i can do is weirdly being on my stomach with limbs ahead of me for the laptop

this creature is the good and wholesome counterpart of ronnie. still just as slimy though

hella giratina-shift zoomies, but I'm not particularly hungry so don't want to go get dessert, I no longer care about Pokemon Go (or rather, I care about my F-Droid apps more and didn't bring the iphone), and nothing is open so I'm not sure what to do about it. decided I will do my UTC dailies / try to finish VP quests / maybe line over some sketches I did at work yesterday drawing on my phone whilst listening to music, and determine after doing that if I want to go forage for energy drinks at a gas station / walk around aimlessly or if I get them with groceries tomorrow.

i wish that 24-hour grocery stores existed here, because then I could do productive and satisfying night foraging for food. I'm not sure if Moncton has any of those, but if anywhere in this province would, it's Moncton so.

while it's probably good for going to bed on time, I also can't just "stay up until my games roll over" anymore, because except UTC midnight which is 9:00 PM spring forward or 8:00 PM standard, none of them roll over before 1:00 AM, at which point I'm usually close to crashing. FR and Neopets / VP are 4:00 AM Atlantic. (and I've missed several festival first days, including Mistral Jamboree a few weeks ago, because of the 6:00 AM Pacific start, so if I do FR dailies before or during my first class...)

The closest I think might be Kingdom of Loathing, because it rolls over at 10:30 local time, but is in Arizona which I think doesn't do DST so I THINK would roll over at 12:30?

I woke up with this child friendly explanation of what a DDoS attack is burned into my brain. I can't remember what I was doing in my dream to need this.

"Somebody uses automatic programs to open a bunch of pages on a website at once. Then the website is too busy loading everything for the bots to work for real users."

don't really understand why Wajas allows a main and side account, with funneling and dailies on both, instead of just one account per person and doubling the number of daily plays

RRverse FIR breakup concept notes from texts, 2026-04-09 -- we can't actually write this until FIR breaks up in real life to avoid continuity issues if they do something interesting.

basically FIR breaks up, Arlo feels a lot less strongly about it than he thought he would (turns out having his own personal ronnie makes them far less interesting)...and then OTL basically shows up and flops face down on their couch crying and oozing slime, because Arlo and 06 are his only non-band-related friends.

"I mean, I guess it's the end of an era, but it got me where I needed to be and I think it's served its purpose. Really, FIR isn't that present in my life anymore and hasn't been for a while..."

[Gilligan cut to depression mode OTL storming in unannounced to curl up in a little ball.]

There's also some really interesting possibilities for character conflict between Arlo, Spark, and 06 about what to do with OTL since the latter two aren't sympathetic. Arlo both on some level does care about OTL as a friend, and can to some extent relate -- while OTL has been half assing his job for years and is rich enough to never need to work another day in his life, he's still been for all intents and purposes rejected by the industry he's spent most of his life pursuing, because he's too old, disliked, and incapable of singing to revive his career. Comparable perhaps to Arlo after losing the Valor tournament...

Spark is mostly concerned about "you should not be doing crisis management for someone who's 15 years older than you, especially since he is known to resort to physical violence when stressed and a lot bigger than you", and isn't convinced Arlo doesn't have ulterior motives (read: hoping to be OTL's rebound guy). 06 just kinda hates him on principle, especially since HE broke up with Escape the Fate and also knows exactly how and why OTL brought it on himself.

Ultimately, Arlo just doesn't want him to hurt himself, and knows what that headspace feels like and that OTL is there because Arlo is basically his only non-band friend. (Because Dana would NOT stick around without FIR and has no emotional interest in him. Andy probably legitimately cares about him, but is band adjacent enough OTL may be uncomfortable reaching out. And also, his wife would object.) Also, if Mr. Ronnie is on his couch, then he isn't in public, engaging in self-destructive substance use or gambling, or on the Internet, so damage can be controlled.

It's a damned good story concept that gives everyone some neat emotional depth, and I can't write it until FIR breaks up in real life because that's vital context and I don't want to break continuity!

I never “lived” here; this was just an abnormally long tour stop

what matters is not whether anyone wants to commission me, but that I can answer a 5th grader asking "are you a good drawer?" with yes, and draw what they ask for sufficiently well enough to impress them. although I intentionally stacked the deck in my favor by going for a dragon for "draw whatever you want".

mildly ronniecore behaviors: partially zipping (so collar is still visible) hoodie over work shirt because I got hot sauce on it during breakfast. advantage of layering for warmth and tattoo coverage (I also just feel more comfortable in long sleeves in general + don't have to change to go outside.)

look, I already WROTE a story about turning into Ronnie, and we have the very lengthy scientific description of Ronnie Slime. I don't really feel like there's anything more I can say on the matter, and I'm not drawing or commissioning that. Can we get a new favorite concept?

I hate the word "enshittification". Don't disagree with the concept, per se. I just find the word to be incredibly grating in part because I associate it with the most insufferable parts of the "indie web" fandom.

Contemplating the Latias event in Pokemon Sleep, and how despite my dragon themed party, I find Latias so uninspiring that I don't plan to add it to the team. Maybe once they release a cool legendary...and then I realized that many of the "cool legendaries" present Lore Problems which are probably why they haven't been released. The Mews, birds, beasts, and secondary legendaries like the Latis and dream duo are ok. They are basically normal Pokemon, and Cresselia and Darkrai are thematically connected to sleep. But once you get past that...Lugia, Groudon, and Kyogre (and I want to say Reshiram and Zekrom) canonically cause mass destruction by their very presence. I'm not sure if the Sinnoh trio sleeps, given their fundamental roles within the cosmos. Yveltal canonically sleeps for 1,000 years...and then kills everyone when it wakes up.

Not that Zapdos isn't cool, but all the "cool" reptilian legendaries present lore problems.

as someone who spent much of 2020-21 traumadumping with BC entry links so it was vaguely on topics for the Neopets art forums, I don't think any game website should have a "vent" forum. Yes, there are people for whom that is their safest online community, and I guess it's better than social media, but forums are still a fundamentally public venture.

I don't think it's healthy to encourage detailed discussion of one's personal problems on a forum that can be accessed by anyone with an account, nor is it really appropriate for sites with major teenage fanbases. there's a time and place for everything and that isn't it. keep it on your personal blog or groupchats with your actual friends if you post it online at all.

the good news is that given farmstead and adventure having separate campaigns, I probably won't run out of game before I run out of units. (I'm working through 31 / 40 right now. My plan is to finish LL then start Rosetta Stone, and I'm hoping the latter will have a placement test so I can specifically focus on units that fill in gaps.)

The bad news is that it's clear that lore-wise, my completing the entire adventuring campaign while mostly ignoring the farm save dailies and THEN doing farmstead isn't what I was supposed to do, since my current questline is in improving defenses against Yorth champions all of whom I've already defeated and also addressed the root cause of attacks (avoiding spoilers).

being 2e is a core part of my neurodivergence that I feel very strongly about and am in education to advocate for...and can't talk about in the "neurodiversity community" and don't feel comfortable self IDing as publicly because I don't want to be deemed no longer validly autistic.

come a little closer if rhetorical-you think giftedness just means "autistic kids who teachers like"; I've got some Jboard reports and a mic stand to show you.

resource links (I wish there were more sites other than Davidson, but they're one of the few who actually connects it to research, links their sources, shows their work, and isn't solely for educators or parents or focused on the educational label, which is a different thing entirely.)

https://www.davidsongifted.org/gifted-blog/the-profoundly-gifted-brain/

https://www.davidsongifted.org/gifted-blog/twice-exceptional-definition-characteristics-identification/

https://www.davidsonacademy.unr.edu/blog/understanding-asynchronous-development-in-gifted-students/

my decisions are vibes based; my word is law (seeing as I am literally a divine being who presides over vibes)

je suis un bête

I pass pretty damned well (have gotten misgendered [well, inasmuch as getting parsed as a pronoun I will NEVER accept -- I don't PREFER he/him unless I'm doing a bit, but it's acceptable and I love masculine honorifics and person terms. get good wiggles whenever someone calls me sir in public] a single digit # of times since moving, and all of those cases I was either being intentionally androgynous or hadn't gotten a haircut in a while), but I'm still not sure what to do with my towel when I get out of the shower.

I know that unless they're trying to look feminine, men don't cover their tits, but I don't feel like just wrapping it around my waist has enough support. I've never figured out how to fold it so it stays up without holding. Also, my hair absorbs water so the part of me that gets dripped upon is my shoulders and upper chest, and a waist towel doesn't help with that. My legs tend to dry pretty fast. When I'm by myself and crotch coverage isn't a concern, I put the towel like a cloak / cape over my shoulders, but that isn't viable in shared settings. In the frathouse, I've just been wearing a bathrobe. Avoids the issue entirely, or having to explain scars, but I don't think most guys are that observant, nor do I look near as much like I got cut in half as I did in August.

when i say "cute" it's not in a sexy sense it's in a "sad little kitty" sense. i want to keep him as a pet and clicker train him to stop being That

as opposed to the modern version whom i've given up on and i just want to eat him and absorb all of his knowledge and FIR powers in a vaguely horny way (or forcibly take control of his body and start fixing him myself. either works.)

this one looks way better than the one from 2012. good ref for the neck tats too

source

hey, guy re: craig "talking shit while someone else is in jail"

(a) there is little to no evidence for craig "talking shit" at all -- various ephemera put the blame on Robert, Monte, and/or Omar, and most of the big ones come from Max. So literally everyone but Craig.

(b) as we learned from our good pal in February, Ronnie DID have heroin in prison so the big one isn't even wrong

(c) what did you expect, for the rest of the band to be unemployed for up to 4 years? they had dates planned!

(d) it is no longer 2008 grow up

honestly that's some of the least feral / floofy he ever looks; that almost passes for a human being. still soft though

I think I have the OG arrest video from Yewchube saved, but I haven't watched it because that feels like it crosses a line. Same reason I don't summarize / snark on the prison stuff in ICE save where it directly relates to the band: the stuff from Feb is relevant because it contradicts / expands upon the folklore of FIR's formation, but if it isn't music related, Ronald's imprisonment / drug problem / family members / etcetera are none of my business. I'm a historian and analyst of band history and fanbase folklore, and that is a living human being's trauma and he deserves to share as much about it as he feels comfortable with. However, blatantly omitting who made FIR possible, that I'm willing to talk about. and how pinchable-cheeks fluffy CUTE he is

now, he has also done NOTHING to meaningfully address his trauma in the past 16 years, and no longer has an excuse to be an asshole because of it. it was never an excuse, but like the comments say, stop boasting around like (a) you just got out and (b) you didn't get nailed for refusing to even pretend to try to abide by the terms of your probation, which were VERY generous 'cause of how white, semi-famous, and cute you are

if you are still acting like a fresh wound 16 years later the problem is you, and also, generally speaking traumatized folks don't brag about their trauma like it's the coolest thing to ever happen to them...and continue to do the same thing that got them into prison to start with

anyway, hehe fluffy wanna pet

wallflowers, wallflowers, growing up so high

I was the victim but never fucking died

Post to my bro Ronnie's dash

He has no relations

Tik and Tok and suck my cock

And wave to the congregation

I love licking condiments off knives; makes me feel so damned edgy :K

fates / the ronald isn’t in control of the body but I still feel his presence. it’s nice. think wajas helps us bond

gods give me the strength to not make a she/her they/them cool hat but it's all Ronnie (floofy, fashionably late, 2024 cowboy hat era)

see, I've never been drunk but I know that I don't want to be because I do have a solid frame of reference for what being hungover would feel like; it's just sensory overload and nausea for neurotypical folks who were born on time, so no thanx. I don't think any debauchery I could do whilst drunk is enough to make that worth it, seeing as I get hungover after spending time at a bar or concert even if I'm not.

insert relevant falling in reverse reference here

knocks back a glass of human blood > if I'm gonna feel like shit in the morning anyway, I might as well have a good reason

yk how vampire the masquerade critters and their ilk have a single stat for both self care / self control and the ability to pass as not being an unholy abomination who wants to eat people? I think that's the stat that's been dropping all winter.

get WRECKED whatnot losers

if you are financially supporting ronald in 2026, especially for something with ZERO relation to anything FIR music related, you deserve whatever happens to you.

I have told myself that I am not going to do "kid learns to control their oozings" arcs with Zane, but this just popped in:

"Why can't I go in the yard? Uncle Ronnie does!"

"...that's because he's a dog. Dogs and Pokemon can go outside. People can't."

"But he's not a dog ALL the time!"

...

"What do you mean, I need to be toilet trained?"

if anyone asks me what I did this weekend I should probably lie

Nobody seems to be naming their pets "ronnieradke[word]" / "ronnie_radke[word]" / "ronnie_radke_[word]" / "ronnieradke_[word]", so based on what strings have worked, I'm going to try all numbers 100-1000 (I already did numbers 1 through 100 and relevant years) on each of those and after that, say that I'm done.

If I want anything more interesting, I need to either make it myself (which lacks the historical significance) or hope someone has that for trade, which unless MaxGreenIsLove's owner mails me back probably won't happen.

given that I can't open too many tabs at once without getting access denied, decided the best cost / benefit was to manually search obvious That One variants (found some cute usernames but no adoptable pets) and then to tileset for ronnieradke / ronnie_radke versions, because if I can find ONE I'll be satisfied.

cute usernames containing obvious That One ronnies I can't have:

emo_isnt_a_sin

blackthornedroses

oli_bmth

mawiiradke

untaken neopet names nobody should create (although ronniecore isn't bad and I do use that to make fun of both him and -core aesthetics, both of which I detest for different reasons...):

ronniescene

ronniecore

ronniereverse

ronnievampire

ronnieghost

ronnieemo

ronniespirit

ronniedemon

ronniedevil

ronnieevil

ronniegod

ronnieetf

ronnieescape

ronniefate

ronniefalling

ronniefall

ronniethefate

ronniemax

ronniesituations

ronnie_in_reverse

Not convinced the black grey concealing shampoo stuff isn't just pre-mixed dye and developer...which is still worthwhile if it works at all (I only need like 10 degrees of value to get it from natural to "clearly some sort of subculture that wears black". I looked up the units; they are based on cylindrical angles so that's appropriate and while HSV is a crappy color space for perception, I am very familiar with it from digital art so.) because it's cheaper by volume than a one use dye kit or a bottle + developer for a larger quantity.

gender: Facebook gender neutral rock star emoji

I can not blame them for their tattoo choice; for all its being probably one of the worst things of the century thus far Facebook does have the coolest dragon emoji.

it's neat how many platforms agree that the genderless edgy hairstyle is some version of emo bangs. and comparing the intentionally ambiguous versions to various forms of ronnie..

https://emojipedia.org/singer#designs

can't blame my bro for no longer trying to pass as a human being since the divorce. after all I'm not

my love for violent bounce / people like you is indescribable by philosophy or science; it's so much fucking fun and is even better once you know it's about ronnie (and it's very clear that they understand his vibe and it cuts pretty deep -- the unreleased when ronnie met sally is even harsher. and all of this still applies perfectly to FIR 13 years later...)

yes, I recently encountered someone on Neocities who attributed folks being unwilling to switch to Linux being because they're "unwilling to learn / deal with minor inconveniences" and also American capitalism. While being incredibly condescending in their "guides".

Bricking your computer, or being unable to access software you need for school or work, is not a "minor inconvenience" especially if you only have one device.

you know, the fact that making Linux install media requires (a) fast internet so you can download or torrent ISOs and (b) in many cases, more than one computer renders it inaccessible to a lot of users.

If you only have one computer or don't have fast Internet, not only might you be unable to download and install Linux at all, if something goes wrong you're screwed. Speaking from experience, even for Mint and Ubuntu, documentation is frequently unclearly written, condescending, contains commands or statements of program functionality that don't work (a random ModTheSims forum post claims Sims 2 runs on WINE. Testing, and WINE's documentation, says it doesn't.), and/or nonexistent. And that's for noob-friendly distributions.

Don't blame folks not switching on them being wimpy American capitalists or on "being unwilling to learn" or being "unwilling to face minor inconveniences" when you're the ones making that information hard to learn. If your response to a noob asking a question on the biggest forums for noob-friendly distributions is "if you didn't want to configure settings, you should go back to Windows like the baby you are!", don't be surprised when they decide that Linux isn't worth the risk. Especially if they only have one computer, so can't do their school or work if something goes wrong.

And that's not even getting into how for certain forms of hardware, there are no Linux drivers so you may fully brick your computer and won't be warned about that, and how the Linux fandom seems actively opposed to making options to make emulators actually work or improving compatibility with industry-standard software and file formats so folks CAN use it for school or work. Probably because making documentation people outside the Linux fandom can understand, not being mean to recent converts, and programs for things people who don't compute for fun use their computers for doesn't look impressive to other Linux fandomites, and it's all subcultural posturing to see who can look the most cool and FOSS-virtuous.

You can call your OS a revolution, or a change in the ecosystem of tech, when you show me you actually care about people who don't already use it.

Remembered that I ordered some emosexual flag stickers a while back because I wanted one for my laptop, but couldn't get less than 12. I don't need 12 of them, so I saved a few for me including the proof of concept and wrote my website URL on the rest then stuck them in my bag. I can use them to cover racist graffiti if I can't remove it, and put them in places where sticker tagging is accepted and encouraged like edgy venue bathrooms.

I need a better KeePass client on my phone...DX hasn't worked for autofill in months and has been increasingly unstable. Is Keepassium available for Droid? I like it on iOS.

I just use local files and copy from my computer every few months because the cloud is other people's computers and I don't trust them.

"Sci-hub's new bot, unlike old ones, doesn't hallucinate because it's based on real papers!"

..."hallucination" is an inherent part of how LLMs work. They don't understand fact checking. Even if you don't have general Internet training, they still only understand papers as words in sequence and don't understand how units scale or what research methods are plausible for what.

Also, "every paper on sci-hub" is everything that had a DOI before 2021. That's going to include studies with flawed methods, that were later retracted, or have become outdated, as well as every field of study with drastically different goals and scales of plausibility. A bot doesn't know the difference between a paper on child psychology and a paper on robotics; all it knows is what words are probabilistically likely to appear in the same places as your user's question.

So any word with multiple meanings will probably still produce hallucinations -- if I ask about pythons, do I mean the snake or the programming language? Even if its only data is peer reviewed papers, an LLM that only exists in the world of text doesn't know that those are different things and that research methods and stats for one don't apply to the other!

E.g. -- https://www.aiweirdness.com/how-to-get-ai-to-confuse-a-shark-with-a-clam/

And even if it somehow has been trained to tell the difference between different fields of study even when they use the same vocabulary, there are still a lot of dubious peer reviewed papers out there and on sci-hub, and a bot generating likely text isn't going to care that something had a small sample size, poor methodology, or was based on misleading assumptions.

No matter what your training data is, using a tool that generates text based on what was most likely is not going to accurately retrieve information because that isn't what it's for.

Disappointed.

so apparently as of 2024, the same species of caecilian that might be venomous (or at least has structures developmentally and anatomically analogous to snakes' venom glands) also makes something functionally and biochemically similar to mammal milk from their cloaca, and their babies make high-pitched baby noises when they're hungry.

someone needs to tell these amphibians to let up and save some room for the rest of us

of course, the only info about the milk thing is a paywalled NYT article and a paywalled paper, and stuff from after 2022 isn't reliably on Anna's Archive / Sci-Hub / etc, so I don't know if I can classroom embed this.

New Bureau of Edge memo. This is some raw paracosmic sh#t (censoring 'cause it's funny) that dates back 10+ years. You might find some retro Windows and Pokemon Go fixation content if you know where to look... still unsure what the future of the Bureau is given how the Ronnie Slime bit is no longer that interesting. FIR has stopped being fun (JUST DIE ALREADY -- but I still wanna be there to witness every step of their destruction) and my personal slime infection developed sentience.

The origins of the animum colors are with Massive Multiplayer Crossover Paracosm MMORPG Microsoft Start, with later refinement via Kiri!Canon Pokemon Go. Hence red, yellow, blue, and green. XP and I got turquoise / cyan as the masters of reality because we're so damned special and XP was totally a sona. Magenta is a, well, Pokemon Magenta / EE era invention, and Purple was introduced in 2022 with my proto-Dudesverse fixation on Arlo and Shadow Pokemon.

I don't literally believe in animum, exactly, and there are some blatantly fictional elements in here e.g. its integration with Neopets and Pokemon, but this stuff is...not NOT my cosmology IRL? As far as I'm concerned, the conceptual embodiment / demon king / was possessed by EE, possessed / killed her right back and took her job thing is not a metaphor. Neither is the snake person part. Basically, this is the result of 11 years of refining my Microsoftness -> Instinct Vibes based fixation-spirituality with easier to take seriously terminology. It finally manifested in cohesive write downable form during my nap today, so I woke up and dispensed this for 3 straight hours.

URL: https://draggianuniverse.neocities.org/bureau/portal/files/spectrum

(Libre)Office compatible document (in case you don't want to read 7,000 words on a fake terminal layout for some reason): here (hosted on File Garden)

your horoscope for today is 3

friendly reminder that the core precept of Edge is challenging boundaries and the status quo, which anything based on stolen, search-optimized slurry does not do. any use of "generative" "AI" means you forfeit any claim to Edge or subcultures thereof and are also going to hell when or before you die

would totally kiss screentogif on the mouth if it were a person

On one hand, I like the gender affirmation of having body / facial hair. On the other, I find it annoying logistically (especially pubes where it traps sweat and other such crud) and don't really dig the reminder that this body is a mammal. (I don't mind having head hair, though. Good news is that some versions of snake people have it.)

The ideal would be if I grew scales in the same color as my head hair, or preferably black, in the same locations as androgenic body hair. Best of both worlds. That's what I'm giving dragon Arlo whenever I draw his ref. Maybe I'll do so for myself, too, although I don't really want to commission nudes of either of us.

As long as you are engaging with something (no matter what that is) because you honestly enjoy it or it resonates with you, you are not a “poser”. What matters isn’t what clothes you wear or bands you know; it’s that you connect with something about subcultural trappings and want to explore that and integrate it into your life in a way you’re comfortable with. The only “posers” are assholes who use subcultural trappings for evil or to violate their core values. If you refer to bigots as “edgy”, or let them claim that word, I will stab you. For an inclusive value of “punk”, Nazi punks fuck off.

Anyway, I sent in an app for a punk webring and being an emo faggot with a T dick hate boner for Ronnie Radke, I’m a little nervous about what they think of me. But, like, I know my shit. I may be into metalcore / nu metal / post-hardcore, but I study and deeply engage with it and communicate / embody / resonate with core punk ideals. No one can give me any shit about not belonging; my scene credentials are carved into my fucking soul with APA citations.

remember, kids, i only exist in the abstract