Oh dear, you've found the secret slime cave lair of Enforcer @ Draggian Universe where they put their awful little thoughts. Get out while you can. Established June 2024 as somewhere to put my angsty thoughts about how Falling In Reverse sucks other than the void and annoying my friends.
Enter at your own risk; this is where I put spur of the moment random nonsense, angst, and opinions to get them out of my brain. When I say slime, I mean slime. And possibly full on possession. There will be no content warnings.
The 50 most recent thoughts are being shown. A curated selection of old thoughts I thought were useful, funny, and/or interesting can be found here.
Clarity note: Timestamps on thoughts might not be accurate. I update from both my desktop and my phone. Desktop Librewolf thinks I'm on UTC, but my phone uses local time.
practically speaking unless you're drawing popular subjects in one of like 3 standard marketing art styles your work is unlikely to be forged.
not to be mean, but nobody on flight rising is a relevant enough artist to get deepfaked
re: scraping, I am not that concerned because let's be real, I don't have a "professional" art style and also mostly draw my own OCs who aren't a popular design type. my art isn't GOOD enough for anyone to want to imitate.
anyway, I can't use glaze on transparent PNGs and have them stay transparent, and background removers still leave gross white pixels around the edges. The only things I do with backgrounds are small enough that Glaze distortions are visible, and ref sheets need to have clear colors that folks can pick from. What I have been doing is glazing the WIPs / white background versions I post on FR. I believe the original paper showed that even 25% of the work available in somebody's style being glazed visibly ruins generator outputs.
Also, "The Enforcer" is the name of a bunch of things more popular than me, so I'm pretty much ungoogleable, but folks can still find the source for art credited to me if they look for me on the usual suspects. I periodically search myself, and my "fuck everyone.TXT" seems to be being followed.
...also, I sign / watermark all my art which is probably more important.
love seeing folks saying âget back in the closetâ under the guise of internet safetyâŠ
you should not reveal specific age, a name you use in real life, or where you live beyond the region level. if you are not sharing any of that, having a Pride flag button in your signature is not âdoxxing materialâ. for many people, online forums are the ONLY place they can be open about anything, so saying âI shouldnât know if youâre cis or trans or your sexual orientationâ is not an internet safety concern, thatâs masked bigotry.
also no one on FR knows shit about technology or anything else really
no forums on that site are worthwhile except creative corner, dragon share, and gameplay sales
no other fucking pet game is like this why is FR the only site people treat like social media
âPEOPLE OF THIS SEXUALITY / GENDER DNIâ IS STILL BEING AN ASSHOLE EVEN IF DIRECTED AT CIS AND/OR HET FOLKS.
Add to Zahori and Verse playlist: System Of A Down - Thetawaves
The plotline of this song probably isn't supposed to be that the protagonist is glad that his friend / love interest killed themself because now he doesn't have to make phone calls, but it could be interpreter that way. I don't approve, but I can't say I don't get it.
course, if falling in reverse actually dies I might need to rename my thoughtspage
fuck ronnie radke context and "I saw it at a vintage store and felt the need to rescue it / rescue innocents from it" context aside, part of why my jacket with an FIR shirt back patch is now kosher is that for all intents and purposes I consider FIR dead in the water. won't be surprised if the only 2026 touring ends up being warped and there are no new releases, and going festivals / warped only is pretty much "yeah you aren't meaningfully extant anymore" even for bands who still sell merch and haven't pissed off literally everyone including their fans
There is something deeply amusing about how the only reason Mr. Bad Girls Club himself had a career between 2018 and 2024, let alone as many (unjustified except PM2019, and tbh, I Prevail songs from earlier in '19 do that better) successes as he had, is mooching off his girlfriend. And starting in 2020, living in and freeloading off her house. I can only assume that she was footing the bills for his Lifestyles Of The Rich And Famous cosplay and FIR's absurd touring accommodations, and (a) she's not there anymore and (b) without either music sales or online merch...
without Saraya, Coming Home + Losing My Mind / Life would probably have killed off FIR. which is why it's baffling that she pursued him when she did -- apparently she imprinted on him when he had long hair per her book (so no later than 2012), but the 2018 version is the worst musical and aesthetic incarnation of Ronnie until he starts going bald.
yes, that happens when your ex is much nicer, more popular, and more competent than you, and is also the only reason you HAVE friends because you haven't meaningfully socialized in your field since 2014.
'Tis fun seeing the tables turn, although I still haven't forgiven y'all for Ronald (2024).
tbh, I am not convinced that Saraya didn't basically get the FIR fanbase in the divorce on account of how universally beloved she was, although that can't be separated from the absolute disaster of the just a little birthday guy tour and Ronnie shifting priorities to openly running a scam operation. And how badly PM2024 sucked, but it basically took fans being mad at Ronnie otherwise for them to be willing to acknowledge that.
Everything FIR has done since The Drug In Me Is Reimagined was phoned in. They have been actively self-destructing since Ronnie turned 40, had a tantrum, and shut down his main source of revenue in merch sales (which has never meaningfully come back). FIR fans have been willing to RECOGNIZE that they're self-destructing, and that Ronnie doesn't care about them, their money, or FIR since the end of 2024.
Art Fight To-do List Updates:
Pher and Xi also need icons.
Essential new fullbodies: Dragon Arlo, Zahori, Anthro!Verse, revamped human Enforcer. Everyone else is "would be nice".
Timeline: May is for getting designs down. June is for drawing icons, laying out ref sheets with text, and getting stuff actually onto the Art Fight website.
Replace bios for everybody for whom it's applicable with links to Neocities.
For folks with old refs, add their most recent digital fullbodies. (I don't especially want to get into revisions for character refs unless I'm substantially changing the design or the old ref is so bad as to impede clarity. I'm a little worried that if I start revising old art, I won't be able to stop and it'll hold me back from doing anything new. Drawing everybody once a year basically serves the same purpose.)
Song of the day: Thousand Foot Krutch - Move
Internet Words And Phrases I Hate #N+1: "I'm 13 and this is deep."
The whole phrasing of this is making fun of Actual Children, which is never a productive or mature thing to do.
While text that's trying to sound like philosophical or social commentary but is ultimately nonsensical is a real phenomenon, I've seen this more often used to dismiss actual intellectual commentary or philosophy (usually leftist) that the writer dislikes.
It's a thought-terminating cliche.
The cultural idea it relies on that teenagers don't have valid feelings or opinions is demonstrably false and hurts people, including me personally: my writings from, yes, age 13-14, show painfully obvious signs of depression and dysphoria -- which I ignored, because the adults around me and my culture in general dismissed it as "teenage angst", which just made me subject myself to more trauma and hate myself for having "immature" trauma responses, and delayed my taking back my life and getting the help I needed.
It's basically emo bashing with extra steps.
super happy icy fun destroy rebuild until god snows shop
More Meteor Falls > https://rentry.co/i39gqd4r
Sitoh was one of my aliases in 2021-22, but the young and cute Loremaster isn't solely author appeal. His existence helps to foreshadow what we'll learn about the Draconid worldview on tech, animum manipulation, Pokemon training, etcetera during Arlo's vision. He also gives the boys someone approachable who can phrase things in ways they'll connect with, establishes that even though Arlo's mom was an asshole, the rest of that side of his family / heritage is legitimately proud of and likes him (well, before he went off grid), and has a good reason to be bilingual. Also, he establishes that the Draconids are a living culture and avoids being a Magical Indigenous Person or Asian Sage archetype, although the canon portrayal of Draconids is so bad that anything would be better.
(They're introduced sabotaging a scientific effort to prevent the world being destroyed by a natural disaster in favor of having Rayquaza do it, whom they can't summon without the player because Zinnia isn't a sufficiently good representative of her own culture. Also, only 2 of them are seen alive, so check off the "dying race" stereotype, and their plot introduces the utterly nonsensical Mega Evolution Multiverse concept.)
psst, the hallucinogen / Pokemon toxins slash hormones / mega stone dust mixture Arlo's gonna drink for this is not that different from shadow formula, see the whole moral / theme of Arlo's character arc. basically we're triggering a nicer and more controlled version of his reverse mode dreams.
Also, I've read some interesting stuff about how even if they're not conscious, letting patients pick the music that plays when they're going down for procedures with sedatives still improves morale and outcomes.
uh, also relevant to Sitoh's animum studies major is Braiding Sweetgrass which we read some excerpts of and similar stuff from Indigenous biologists in my religion and ecology class, re: realizing "hold on, this is the same thing". And we'll see that throughout Arlo's vision re: the ancestral Draconid traditions of Mega Evolution and "Infinity Energy".
None of this is Pokemon canon, except for the Draconid people living in Meteor Falls, worshipping Rayquaza, and being the original users of Mega Evolution. I have taken that and run off with it, even though I don't otherwise consider remake games to exist, because I think Draconids are neat and have since I first played OmegaRuby in 2017
This is part of why he's so damned mean in the RRverse, although I do feel kinda bad for him since he is also getting screwed over by being Ronnie's canonical love interest. (Whitney [probably...] is easy. I just had Ronnie ghost her for 3 months and then all the scene journalism calling him gay.)
He's always been the brains of the operation and more mature in general (e.g. being capable of long-term behavior change and recognizing people as willful agents even if he's not in love with them and/or they're female), but he's a lot like Ronnie in a lot of key ways. You can understand why they imprinted on each other so hard. He's the main initiator of all the EtF-side beef (I will shout from the rooftops for as long as it matters that the Ronnie / Craig feud is a myth because that's my biggest and most controversial research finding) for a reason, although he fails to hide how legitimately heartbroken he is and is extremely huggable even at his nastiest since unlike Ronnie, he probably bathes and wouldn't bite.
While I enjoy the concept of Ronnie cuddles hence all the art I commission of him with Arlo, the idea of snuggling any version of Ronnie myself feels viscerally wrong. Max has no such issues, although the modern version I respect too much and is also extremely married.
He isn't going to be getting a human with ears and tail version for the reasons that I respect him too much, the modern version has clearly set boundaries separating himself from EtF / FIR / Ronnie and is just a normal guy, and he wouldn't be meaningfully visually distinct from Ronnie in my art style.
natural born killers (band) only has one EP, but theyâre so cute. mostly because itâs Max trying to pull the uno falling in reverse card after he got kicked from etf in 2012 but itâs clear his heart isnât in it because heâs a good egg and also I get the impression he was very uncomfortable with being considered the frontman, see how he left vocals on VNB as soon as he could. he is a damned good vocalist though
song of the day (woke up feeling too shitty to have restraint so you get a cliche deal with it): Pierce The Veil - King For A Day
I know that having supportive parents makes you an invalid trans person but it isn't all sunshine and rainbows; the relationship my mom and I have now is a product of active work on both of our parts. we sucked when I first came out
the 2fa app I use is called "2faguard" so whenever I open it I usually end up typing "2fag" into the searchbar to start and I think that's neat
(Art Fight allows fan characters and AU versions of canon characters, but they need to be visually distinct from their original copyrighted forms. I haven't made original alternate refs for Spark and Arlo because I...like their canon designs, but the dragon arc opens up options. I've seen Pokemon fusions, anthro Pokemon, and anthro / animal AUs of canon human characters on Art Fight before, so I think if I make them both at least 30% visibly nonhuman and maybe give them alternate non-canon outfits...of course, I don't have a good sense of what Spark would wear other than his canon outfit.)
Re: Arlo / Ronnie...I like the concept of Ronnie Cuddles (TM). I like thinking about them and looking at art of them especially if I don't have to draw it. I can't snuggle him myself. The thought is just grossly wrong even for the cute version and I'm not sure precisely why. Arlo can snuggle as much as he wants, so he does.
Thinking I might make Distinct Enough For Art Fight Non-Canon Kemono Spark a Zapdos / Luxray fusion instead of just a Zapdos. Gives me more to play with and to make him similar in human to beast ratio to Dragon Arlo. Course, I kinda like art of Ronnie and Arlo better so he isnât a high priority.
I wish I had more than one optical drive. Of course, I'm not sure if I could rip more than one CD at once even if I did. (When I get my next [desktop] creative workstation, it will have a built in optical drive which should make ripping faster than going through USB.)
ok, I am going back to the grocery store and eating cereal for breakfast today because even though the out date on the lid is June 10, the yogurt I got yesterday tastes WRONG; it is extremely sour and has a strange aftertaste so is triggering the You Have Been Poisoned alert.
they also didn't have liberte Greek so I got the Atlantic store brand so it could also be that I just don't like that kind, but it does not taste like I expect yogurt to. I might go to sobey's because while I don't get points from them, last time they had liberte grec and the better veggie nuggets which Atlantic didn't
I am inclined to believe the body if it says something tastes like it has gone off because natural selection didn't raise no fool
Meteor Falls intro: https://rentry.co/5ogywz7p
The Dudesverse / RRverse backlog has not been forgotten, but for whatever reason, my description writing sector has not been online, so I'm trying to write sections as dialogue / scripts and figuring I can fill in the rest later. I'll also be able to do more ergonomic typing with a desk; I have been doing most of my stuff except webinars on the iPad and phone because neither being on my bed or on the kitchen table works that well with the laptop for extended periods.
I FINALLY HAVE MEDICARE!
Now I just need a job and I'll maybe feel like a real adult...
...I wonder if I can do a red velvet base with some sort of appropriately colored liquid inside, if I find the right bakery, for maximum symbolism...
see, this is why I need someone to humor my emo night requests, so we can ritualistically consume the slime as a primal horde and absorb his powers
primal horde being a reference to a Sigmund Freud writing we read and ripped to shreds in anthropology of religion which posits that the origin of the sky-father deity is that every caveman ever killed and ate their alpha male and then felt bad about it
Does anyone make photo cakes of a reasonable size to be consumed by one person? I'm contemplating my committed-to bit for when FIR breaks up, which will happen any day now...but one of my goals for the semester is to not cross the streams, so I would rather not explain to classmates or my mature professional adult housemates who this guy is and why I got a cake with his face on it. I suppose I could rent a room at a community center and put out flyers for a literal Ronnie Radke Is Over party, but I'm unsure if anybody would go.
NB municipal elections are May 11th. This is completely irrelevant to me until and unless I can get citizenship, but I'm not voting for anybody who doesn't bother translating their sign. Yes, most areas aren't THAT bilingual, there's no way to make it look good from a graphic design standpoint (especially with close cognates where it just looks redundant, which most political terms are), and I suspect anybody regardless of language will catch on that a sign with a person on it near a polling place in advance of election day is a campaign sign. But, like, especially since NB is legally bilingual on a provincial level so even more so than Canada as a whole, it's a basic gesture of consideration and attention to detail.
Of course, thinking about it, I also think that if you know there's a notable non-English-speaking population in your jurisdiction, you should translate your signs even if it isn't an official language. But not doing so when running for office in a legally bilingual region (especially in Moncton which is also both on a city level) is just lazy.
Ideally, with the library debloated, shuffling all becomes viable again, so I can (re)learn song titles from more recent assessments.
Another song of the day I can't find. Part of the problem is that since I have a lot of artists in my library with similar sounding voices and vibes, I'm not totally sure if the two lyric snippets in my head are from the same song. The ones I remember are something that sounds like "how could they become intertwined?" and a repeated refrain of "screaming for salvation". I think it's either Bleed From Within or Sylosis, but I didn't find anything that sounded right on the latter on AZlyrics before it DDOS kicked me out.
Booted up 4thewords and the description-writing section of my brain immediately shut down, so here's some disembodied dialogue for the RRverse Award Show story, which is on the backlog and along with In Which Zane Is Produced (tbh, I'm considering rewriting that one entirely because it's been around since 2023 and I'm not sure if I like the draft anymore), finishes off the main RRverse arc -- this one is the aftermath / conclusion to Ronnie's Awakening, where we see how the rest of the scene reacts to the new Escape the Fate lineup and Ronnie's coming out.
R: "Hey, dude. Are you busy right now?"
A: "Uh, no. What's going on?"
R: "Well, apparently Escape the Fate's getting some sort of award from the label for the best artists of 2006, and they want me to go accept it at this whole ceremony. I invited both sets of guys because I'm not sure... which Escape the Fate they mean? They mentioned both Dying Is Your Latest Fashion and the 'comeback' so... honestly, I'm kinda hoping that the other guys are too mad at me to want to show up. It'd feel rude and weird to not invite them, but I also don't know what I'd say to them now. Like, you remember that Max was at the show with Blessthefall, but I haven't seen, talked to, or heard about any of the other guys since they got kicked out. I hope they're doing okay? And don't, like, want to kill me too bad?"
"If it's a public awards ceremony, they probably have security who'll stop any physical fights."
"Yeah, but that doesn't account for the parking lot before or afterwards..."
"You know, if someone offers to fight you, you can just say no. Especially if they don't know where you live, which the old Escape the Fate guys wouldn't... right?"
"Point is, I'm freaking the fuck out. Sure, we got the new album out for Halloween and that went pretty well, but to be honest, I know it hasn't been that long but I'm not sure I even consider Dying Is Your Latest Fashion to be me anymore. I still play the tracks from it because I know it's what people expect, but it feels weird every time. Uh, especially any songs with Max involved... fuck, I wish Situations wasn't the one that everybody loved; I've got his little squeaks on the back track because Jesse refuses to do them but it just feels... empty to do without him."
"You've seen award shows before, right? It's all just self-congratulation for the organizers; they don't actually care what you have to say. Put together a generic acceptance speech and nobody will really notice or care. Just say something about how you've grown a lot for the past year and you appreciate everyone who's helped you with the opportunity or something and leave it at that. If any of the old lineup tries to start shit, just call security and ignore them."
"It's not being on stage that I'm worried about. It's the fucking banquet before and after the award presentations. No matter how hard I try to keep my mouth stuffed with snacks at all times, somebody's going to want to fucking talk to me and I know they're either gonna ask about how I'm gay or about why I kicked the old guys out. The label won't fucking tell me what order the awards are supposed to be in so I can't just show up to get mine and then immediately leave. Also, they want to do a photoshoot with me and the band, and at least they clarified that they meant the current lineup when I asked, but I still haven't really done any publicity stuff since the shift... well, except the gay thing, but that wasn't really, uh, planned. Not that I'm objecting, of course!"
"It's not your fault that the scene and its 'journalism' couldn't be mature. It's been a good 6 months since then, so everyone's probably forgotten about it by now, especially with the new album release?"
"That's what I'm hoping. I'd be pretty pissed if I show up at this music award show for my music and all everyone wants to talk about is who I'm dating."
"Yeah, that's about how every gay and/or female artist feels."
"...speaking of who I'm dating, I'm allowed to bring a plus 1. Want to come with? I dunno what you'll do there, but maybe there'll be some other bands you like around and I'd... I'd feel better with you there. I don't want to be there at all, really, but I'm the head of the band so I kinda have to show up. And, like, I feel like if they're gonna make me do a photoshoot, you should be there. After all, you're as much of the reason why I'm, like, not in prison right now and why the new Escape the Fate can be exist as any of the other guys."
"Aww, I love you too. Only thing is, I don't have anything to wear... I know it's a scene awards show, but my old gear's kinda embarrassing at this point and all my band shirts except the ones you gave me are anachronistic..."
Ronnie chuckled under his breath. "I can fix that. At least we can get SOMETHING fun out of this."
Based on a reverse image search, it's the logo for the fictional biker gang from Sons of Anarchy, a show I have little to no desire to watch, but it's also frankly rather generic as far as edge imagery goes and I like scythes.
It's not from someone horrible which is what I was concerned about.
I went to a vinyl expo today. I was kinda underwhelmed, although I wasn't expecting much to begin with since I'm about 30 years younger than the target audience and my tastes are much more recent. My interest in vinyl is 0 because I'm sorry, no album after 1990 has any reason to be on it.
There was a strong focus on metal, which was cool, but I was hoping more vendors would have CDs or other music paraphernalia (patches, posters, etcetera) than did. Still had yields that made the 5 dollars for admission worth it, although maybe not the taxi especially since there's nothing else in the area.
I'll only go to the vinyl expo if I can bike there. Had to take a cab because my e-bike is still at the slime house until my mom comes up with a van to get the rest of my shit; I can't take my bike on the bus.
Not sure whose logo the gun-scythe is and I don't normally like guns as part of edgy imagery, but it reminded me of the stereotypical impractical anime weapon. I thought it was cute, and it came for free with the larger Slipknot patch.
Today's song of the day is something I can't find. I know it contains a section of lyrics that SOUNDS like "save your wishes for the sky", but I can not find that on a web search. I thought it was Hail The Villain but it's not. So, either I misheard the lyrics, it has no documentation online, or both, and I don't remember the artist or title.
damn it, despite knowing quite well that Ronnie is the one who plagiarized, I can't look at the rolling stones lips without taking damage and having to remind myself of the realities of popularity
https://file.garden/ZvBqN3lQEnLVuczj/Ronnie_Gets_A_Flea_Bath.md(2).txt
Ronnie gets a flea bath, and also some sad homoerotic tension.
Saskia is attested as Max's girlfriend in the DIYLF liner notes, which is good enough for me and I refuse to consult creepy unsourced celebrity websites. (His current wife would be very anachronistic; I think as of their most recent anniversary announcement they only mentioned having gotten to know each other 3 years beforehand.)
I feel really bad for Max in general in the RRverse, but it's also historically accurate. Dude isn't proud of it and unlike some people, has matured, but he can and did get NASTY in regards to Escape the Fate Drama, both with Ronnie and when he got kicked out in 2012. He still comes off even more so than Ronnie as a poor little heartbroken puppy when he does so (No Escape and the only surviving audio interview where EtF talks about Ronnie are both absolutely wrenching, especially since Max sounds like he's about to cry), but he can dish it out.
This takes place after the award show (new years 2006-7 / 2023-24 in OTL), so Max is aware that Arlo exists and begrudgingly tolerates Ronnie having a new boyfriend on "I want my beloved to be happy" grounds, but he's still pissed at Ronnie. Especially in the present moment. He'll be a little calmer in the award show sequence where he's just talking to Arlo.
We are not going to see any future werewolf nonsense with Max, because in both timelines, he is retired from the scene and just some guy and has set clear boundaries in regards to Ronnie. Also, since everyone in my art style is similarly androgynous and cute, a kenomomimi version of Max wouldn't be that visually distinct from Ronnie.
Max calling Ronnie a junkie falls in the category of things I don't feel okay with commenting on (Ronald's drug problem is off limits, as is anything about prison that isn't his own fault or directly FIR related), but it is absolutely something that a pissed off version of him would say in-universe. Characters can be inappropriate about IRL-extant trauma, but I can't be.
The whole story is an excuse for my silly little Neopet, but why not milk it for historically accurate to EtF lore pain?
Arlo's monologue during this segment: "awww... oh shit."
Obvious telegraphing is obvious, but more fun than just namedropping Max in the narration. Let them connect the dots...
(will be finished tomorrow and then maybe I can return to the backlog ... this is an attempt to return to creative writing with something that has less going on and is pure fluff. the remaining ones are pretty light and fluffy since we're past Reverse Mode III but still have more character action and generally more there there.)
With little else to do, Arlo made his way out of the apartment lobby, squeezing the bone all the way back to keep Ronnie on track, the other dog following behind. Arlo made a note to himself that at some point, he'd need to get Ronnie fitted for a leash, although it might have to be custom commissioned given his wolf form's unusual size. Then he giggled to himself upon thinking about getting Ronnie a leash / harness in human form, but there was no reason not to... after all, he seemed to enjoy being Arlo's simultaneous boy-toy and pet, and the collar, at least, was conveniently sized so it fit his neck even through shifts...
Of course, at present, Ronnie was just Arlo's pet and that was it, and as soon as they got back to the apartment, Arlo and the green sparkledog seemed more interested in each other than otherwise. They resumed rolling around with, wrestling, and licking each other like they hadn't been interrupted at all, taking advantage of the oversized dog bed and stack of old shirts (or possibly just laundry?) and dog toys that sat at the corner of the living room opposite the couch. Arlo didn't see any reason to intervene, but didn't want to leave two oversized beasts of unknown capabilities unsupervised, so pulled out Ronnie's phone from the end table to order himself a pizza and settled into the couch, absentmindedly clicking through cable channels trying to find something tolerable.
While Arlo eventually settled on a cartoon he vaguely remembered Candela mentioning (he didn't recognize it; presumably it didn't air in Kanto), he spent about as much time looking at Ronnie and his friend as at the screen, still trying to figure out what about the green dog's hair looked so damned familiar, and considering why they were acting like they knew each other. Arlo knew that Ronnie wasn't going around socializing with other dogs in werewolf form -- most of the time, he was in the future when he turned; the only reason he wasn't tonight was the fleas. (Hopefully the other dog didn't have fleas itself, or they'd have to repeat this whole process again. Of course, that certainly wouldn't be the worst thing in the world...) Even when he'd been in wolf form in the past before, Arlo was always with him. They'd gone to the dog park a couple of times, but it didn't tend to work very well -- other dogs and Pokemon both tended to respond to Ronnie with fear. Neither of them were sure if that was because of Ronnie's size, not quite being either a human, wolf, or Pokemon, or Shadow aura-boosted power level. So, mostly, when Ronnie got the zoomies, Arlo just brought him on walks or runs around the block, where they didn't encounter many other dogs and those they did tended to hide behind their humans. So, Arlo knew that they hadn't met another implausibly proportioned and colored emo dog, and was pretty sure he'd remember it if they had. Maybe Ronnie had run into the dog when he was in human form? Would a normal dog be able to recognize that human and wolf Ronnie were the same being? He did still have some fur in his default human form, so maybe the smell was consistent...
Arlo shrugged and supposed it didn't really matter as long as they were having fun and Ronnie didn't catch fleas or get sick from his new friend. About a half-hour later, Arlo's pizza arrived, and by the time he'd consumed half of it and put the rest in the fridge for breakfast, Ronnie and his little friend had fallen asleep, curled up with each other on the base of the dog bed, burrowed in the pile of laundry. Before Arlo headed to bed himself, he made an undignified noise under his breath and snapped a picture with his phone. They were so fucking cute.
Then, at about 4:00 AM, Arlo staggered his way towards the bathroom, squinting after finally finding a light switch while feeling up the walls in the dark. Outside, the slightest hints of sunlight peaked behind the building line and a few enthusiastic birds had started chirping. Arlo didn't pay much notice to that until his biological business was attended to, but realized its relevance when on his way out of the bathroom, he caught a silhouette that shared the hairstyle, but not the body shape of the green dog still curled up with a returned-to-human-form Ronnie, Ronnie's body and the haphazardly placed pile of laundry the only things preserving the other figure's modesty.
Arlo tiptoed his way back to the end table where his phone was charging to take another picture (thanking his phone's developer for the night vision camera roll) and quietly, let out another high-pitched noise. Also, why Ronnie and the other sparkledog had gotten along so well made itself quite clear... then once Arlo returned to thinking with the head on his shoulders, he realized that once either of the former canines woke up, things were going to get awkward at best and violent at worst. Before going back to bed and awaiting the explosion, Arlo removed two outfits from Ronnie's drawers and laid them out on either side of the nest, where Ronnie and his companion were still intertwined with each other without a care in the world...
Finished the Lingo Legend Canadian French curriculum. That feels like it went by shockingly quickly. Guess I'll do review mode until I finish the farmstead quests?
I think I started sometime in January. I don't have a good idea of how much French LL contains. January to May isn't an unreasonable length for a semester class, but I feel like there is more in there than there is in one semester of 101 and it's daily?
https://file.garden/ZvBqN3lQEnLVuczj/Ronnie_Gets_A_Flea_Bath.md(1).txt
In case you can't tell from the telegraphing, the blue-green recolor of an Onyx Valentine Varwolf is Max, and things are going to be extremely awkward when the sun comes back up. I wasn't sure about what to do with Ronnie Gets A Flea Bath, but had the concept for an introduction to Neo!Max (who is canon, but his human form has absolutely no interest in Ronnie or weird science anymore, and since OTL is retired from the scene and has set clear boundaries separating himself from Ronnie, I would feel weird OC-ifying him even if he has something to do. No Escape, Ronnie's Awakening, and the unwritten award show story are ok because they're DIYLF / TDIMIY lore fanfic. This Max is fully separate from Escape the Fate so is just a guy who also is just some guy in real life.) and realized they made sense to merge.
As for why Max is a werewolf, this will never be revealed in-universe because he's not spending any more time near Ronnie and his weird science nonsense than he has to, but basically, since Ronnie sold his soul so they could get Edge Famous TOGETHER, they have some sort of conceptual animum link which didn't go away when they broke up. Since Ronnie has gotten a major animum emissions boost from Arlo's shadow aura rubbing off on him, the time travel, and the werewolf thing, enough spillover happened whenever Ronnie transformed over time that eventually it managed to also turn Max. Which he does not want any part of.
OTL Ronnie and Max might have something similar going on -- Max is pretty much immune to slime since he knew Ronnie before he became That, but does get headaches whenever Ronnie is being egregiously stupid even without being told what he's doing.
Alt!Ronnie has no EE slime nonsense going on because unlike OTL, he didn't participate in the fight in the desert and therefore didn't die and get improperly revived / replaced by an alternate version, but he did still sell his soul to the Bureau of Edge back in high school.
the design of big ears, big paws, weirdly skinny tail except with a fluffy tuft on the end, and overbite with cute little fangs is straight from Neo. the color highlight on top of black is both a pun on Max's last name and because in one interview from 2008, he decided on blue for "what color of crayon would you be", plus the black and green color scheme of TWIO and his cute little teeths and bangs from that. cyan is also the glow color of his very short lived magical boy super mode from No Escape (before Ronnie eats him for refusing to participate in sexy magical boy Ronnie Slime Super Mode mass murder)
Lingo Legend unit 39/40 is idioms, and I'm tempted to start using literal translations of these because they don't not make sense in English and idk if that's a Norman conquest thing or what.
Btdubstep, other than looking up "poire" because it's been a while since the fruits unit, and "pogner" which is apparently a Quebec-ism, I was able to literally translate these without assistance.
E.g. (using LL's translations):
"J'Ă©cris comme un cochon." > "I have bad handwriting", lit. "I write like a pig."
"Il chante comme un casserole." > "he sings poorly", lit. "he sings like a soup pot."
"Tu as le bras long." > "you have influence", lit. "you have the long arm."
"Coupons la poire en deux." > "let's meet halfway", lit. "Let's cut the pear in half."
"Ce n'est pas le crayon le plus aiguisé." > "he is a little dumb", lit. "He's not the sharpest pencil." (My first thought was wondering if "not the sharpest tool in the shed" is related.)
"Jeter l'argent par les fenĂȘtres" > "to pour money down the drain", lit. "To throw money out the window."
"Se pogner la beigne" > "to be lazy", lit. "To catch (? this one isn't on word reference; apparently it's specifically Quebecois) the donut."
https://www.je-parle-quebecois.com/lexique/definition/pogner.html
it has nothing to do with him, but OG!ViolentNewMax has a ghost frog now because it's too cute to zap over
If you don't like the weather anywhere in North America that isn't tropical or desert, wait 5 minutes.
https://barrypopik.com/blog/if_you_dont_like_the_weather_wait_five_minutes_weather_saying
"A popular Nova Scotia saying is 'if you don't like the weather, wait 5 minutes.'" -- news in clinic waiting room
That's a popular saying EVERYWHERE that isn't in a equatorial, hot desert, or otherwise locked climate.
And it's not Ronnie being inappropriate for polite company, or that I'm trying to deny being any of those things. Far from it. It's legitimate philosophical issues with and/or things I don't connect with in all of the above.
"Queer culture":
Romance and sex don't really factor into my calculations at all, and tbh, my relationship with gender isn't clear cut. I'm more of a guy than not, but I'm still genderless and much more of a snake.
I have little interest in most pop culture, period.
The "indie web":
using political language and issues that demonstrably hurt people for cultural posturing and refusing to admit that is what they're doing. no, having a website is not political action.
disturbingly blatant ableism
following distorted versions of 90s / 00s trends is still algorithmic and also feels silly and insincere
Online autistic community:
I have literally never encountered any autistic self-advocacy organization, or writing by neurodivergent people, that acknowledges that giftedness exists. Far more common is saying that "gifted kids are all just autistic / ADHD", blaming being called gifted for trauma, or saying that the word "gifted" is inherently ableist and/or that "autistic geniuses" don't exist and are problematic stereotypes.
Literally all of my autistic traits are inseparable from being 2e, even the classical stuff like sensory perception, verbal communication, and special interests.
Alterhumanity:
blatant bio, psych, and animal behavior misinformation
too much focus on spirituality and hostility towards psychological explanations, which doesn't align with my worldview or how I experience being a snake guy
actually serious writings are pretty much all by and for mammals
(ya boy ended up on them.us and got existentially dysphoric; why do I keep doing this?) I keep hoping that one day, âqueer cultureâ or the âindie webâ or the online autistic community or alterhumanity or similar will flip a switch and connect with me, and it just doesnât. I feel more kinship to being emo in 2006, even knowing that it wouldnât actually be compatible with being openly trans or autistic, than I do to beingâŠanything in 2026, because even outside of the mainstream platforms itâs all the same shit. I am not online. I do not care about memes or discourse, and donât see indie web posturing and Neocities LARPing as any meaningfully different. 2000s ânostalgiaâ just feels silly, insincere, and inaccurate and âemo revivalâ is actively offensive because revival implies it was dead. On one hand, itâs affirming to call myself a time traveller or displaced in time, which I have been doing more recently.
Something something queer view of time but itâs more of an asynchronity metaphor. On the other, itâs lonely and frustrating and pisses me off that all these âcommunitiesâ that claim to speak for meâŠdonât. Even when theyâre talking about things I experience, it isnât my culture. That isnât me. As far as I can tell, my relationship withâŠexistence, even when I use labels or connect with some aspects of experience or language, is entirely bespoke. Nothing fully fits.
Itâs liberating to reject subcultural distinctions â there is only The Enforcer and I have no obligation to abide by your standards just because I am trans or autistic or a snake or have a website. But it also means that I donât âbelongâ anywhere unless I make it myself and I get no external validation.
Gods, I hope my emo night etcetera plans work. I need this more than you know. Iâm outside of time, but maybe I can at least get some physical space back. Havenât been from anywhere since I graduated.
i promise i'm working on something really cool in meatspace; we're making things happen and advancing our edge quotient. just gotta write the email which is the most important and also least fun part of all this...
gods i hate duckduckgo's layout and results so much they both suck even without the ai bullshit
at least getting mistaken for a DDOS attack is better than getting the "are you thinking about suicide?" pop-up, which has also happened to me while looking up music
I should know by now that no column about tech is worth reading. I'm not even that into tech for its own sake, so all it does is make me mad with shit journalism and baseless bullshit generator hype. "AI" does not warrant or deserve rights, and if you use it you don't either, at least not for anything you used it to generate.
got this cool toonie from the bank while getting bus fare today
i'm here because of (a) civil rights, (b) climate survivability, and (c) much lower odds of any random stranger being both bigoted against me personally and armed, but also the money is way prettier
Theme is 90% by Enforcer; the rest is thoughts.page default. Kick ass, take names, fuck Ronnie Radke (not literally).
