enforcer's slimyboy thoughts

what does this mean...? I assume it's a pop culture reference but I don't know to what

the key image here is the windows 8 OS-tans (or back in 2015 before "Frutiger Aero" was a thing, I gijinka'd all extant up to that point Windows versions and many other MS products as Hissies) flinging rubber bands

https://devblogs.microsoft.com/oldnewthing/20211228-00/?p=106058

there are more ways to make something april fools / humor themed than clowns. not that I care about goatlings anymore except that I'm logging in to check on my quitting sales thread, but for the love of the gods please do SOMETHING for april battle center / jestling other than clown variants; we don't need more of those

they should have later on made literal Microsoft coffee to go with the windows vista soda

the story of Microsoft Coffee

By Design: my cat does this

https://devblogs.microsoft.com/oldnewthing/20231003-00/?p=108847#comments

everyone knows the optimal office cat is scribbles from office 97, though

Also, come to think of it, my question of "okay, I get that you want the psychological effects, but why bother with such a clearly unpleasant way to do it?" also applies to some "hard" drugs. I fail to see how anyone who's ever accidentally gotten food or water up their nose would want to snort cocaine. Inhaling solid or liquid things through your nose HURTS because that's, uh, not what it's really for.

If you want to mess with your nervous system, fine, but why bother with consuming things that smell and taste bad, inhaling stuff up your nose, or giving yourself shots when you could just take a pill? (Note that I do not intend to do any of these things; given everything else going on with my nervous system I would at minimum want to make sure it wouldn't react badly with SSRIs and there's really not enough data on what drugs do to neurodivergent folks since that requires knowing ND mechanics, so it's best avoided for safety purposes since the necessary information is not there.)

Some places have actually done this, where there's a designated place to do your injections or shrooms or whatever with clean equipment, medical staff, and educational resources onsite, and that's worked pretty damned well re: making things safer for folks who are using and getting them access to healthcare and addiction recovery help if needed

plus, beyond drunk / high folks being annoying to be around, allowing use / intoxication at home or designated use sites but not in public would also be safer because that way it's in a controlled environment and it's easier to get to medical care if something goes wrong than it would be if, say, you're high and pass out during a concert or at the mall.

I have no moral objections to drug use. It's your body; you can kill yourself as fast as you like and legalizing stuff makes it easier to keep things as safe as possible. My personal objection is just that the most popular drugs stink and drunk / high people are annoying to be around, hence "legalization with ventilation" -- do whatever you like at home or in designated places, but not in public because the people around you at a music venue or whatever did not consent to being exposed to your fumes or expected to babysit you while you're high.

And also don't drive because that is a several ton pile of metal that is very good at killing things, so you need to be alert.

I guess this is probably my sensory sensitivity talking. I would not personally deem marijuana or tobacco's behavioral effects to be worth how bad they smell, but maybe this isn't a concern for most folks? (I'm aware that long term smokers / drinkers get used to it, but why would you even start given how unpleasant they are just to be around?)

Re: stimulants in general, I understand why folks do drugs behaviorally speaking. Nervous system stimulation or depression can be enjoyable or useful depending on what you're trying to do. What I don't get is the methods of delivery. To be honest, it's the "soft" drugs (alcohol, marijuana, and tobacco) that I don't get, because sure they have behavioral effects but they also stink. Why would you want to eat something that smells / tastes bad or even worse, inhale stuff that smells bad into your lungs. If you want to alter your nervous system, it seems that pills etcetera are less sensorially unpleasant ways to get the same net result. I can't imagine edibles ever being appealing if weed tastes anything like it smells.

I need to go eat dinner. Another thing that I've noticed from getting very abruptly back onto caffeine is that I've gotten back into forgetting to eat much more frequently. This is a thing that ordinarily, the SSRIs seem to have done a decent job at (plus being on a dining hall schedule where you must eat at a given time if you want to eat that day), but it seems they have been overridden.

...hmm. i know that i'm just ASD 2e at baseline, but some combo of hormonal imbalance and caffeine has resulted in me getting more adhd features. (forgetting to eat, much easier hyperfocus / jumping between foci)

there is probably a neuroscience reason for this. like, the combo of inability to focus and much more jumping around and connection-making with special interesty stuff...

NO YOU ARE NOT DOING A LIT REVIEW RIGHT NOW YOU NEED TO EAT

this and my executive functioning are the two strongest bits of anecdotal evidence from me personally that despite overlap, autism and adhd are different things and I only have one of them. if i had adhd then stimulants would not...stimulate to the same degree, hence ronnie-boy clearly self-medicating and consuming absurd amounts of coffee even when he was nominally "clean".

I've been caffeinating in an effort to stop getting sleepy at 3 in the afternoon and because it also does a bang up job of dealing with cramp pain, but I think it has had the effect (possibly more intense than baseline because I have been pretty much clean for a long time before jumping right back in the deep end; the officially licensed monster energy fridge will be the death of me) of giving me, like, a LOT of ideas; I feel some of the most creative I have ever been recently, but combining that with dysregulation in terms of focusing on and executing them and my thoughts being even more jumpy than usual. attempted to do some scene assessment and could not stay focused for it. it's still fine re: classes thus far, though and i intend to stop this weekend since the goal is to get me back into sleeping at night. still, though, connections; I can see the code (or maybe it's that being on a stimulant of some sort gets me close enough to ronnie mode that i can understand him better than usual. presumably if i were to ever do cocaine [which i won't] i would get fully possessed; one of many reasons to not do it)

To clarify, slimebeasts get reptile features if they were not already reptiles, which is what I mean by "animal / slime / reptile hybrid". Reptiles are, of course, animals. i am not committing the sin of that sign on beale street. (source: The Commercial Appeal)

As a reptile originally from the Memphis area, I've always hated this sign. In part because it makes no biological sense. who the fuck is bringing their snake and arguing that reptiles aren't "animals" such that they must be singled out. like uh it moves around, reproduces sexually, has bones and organs and stuff, and consumes other life to survive, what else is it, a fungus?

snektuations attempts to do a show on beale street and is promptly arrested on grounds of "no animals or reptiles". (the previous version of my slimebeast text referred to "animal / slime / reptile hybrids" before i clarified it to "they get reptile features if they weren't already reptiles" so i got to thinking about the sign)

or funnier, a non-anthro anole wanders in and is promptly arrested

someone should do some accurate biological rules-lawyering and argue that technically, humans are animals, so per that sign no one is allowed, besnaked or otherwise

another possible translation for "axolotl" is "water monster", or at least that's one that's popular because it sounds cool; linguistic evidence is unknown

it's a popular fucking monster

i made the concept last year during OCtober of "slimebeasts", animal / slime / reptile hybrids that result from animals getting associated with concepts (e.g. snektuations' origin as a dying is your latest fashion mascot snake) and contaminated by corrupted edgeslime, and I still think those are interesting as worldbuilding and an excuse for sparkledogs, but this is the real crucible of all my musings on whether OTL Ronnie is best represented as a poorly trained dog / wolf / werewolf, his canon sona, or a slimy fish / salamander / early tetrapod, which he looks like. He's both; he's a literal waterdog except instead of water it is slime. And turning him into a cute animal makes producing cute / gross / otherwise making fun of him art totally kosher and avoids the "I can't draw human Ronnie as gross as he needs to be" problem!

and then slimeboy has a larval form which is an escape the fate ronnie axolotl. it all fits. it all makes sense

...I could make Slimeboy Ronnie a consolidated fursona. he is a waterdog / mudpuppy, as in simultaneously an amphibian and a werewolf; I've cracked the code and am looking into the fucking matrix. I made Slimeboy Ronnie a drawn human ref for Art Fight last year, but I realized that despite being less physically human than purple escape the fate Ronnie, he's still enough closer to the real one that I felt weird requesting art of him. Also, he's supposed to be gross and offputting and I can't draw a human and make it not kind of look like a cute anime boy. But a gross and offputting, but nonetheless cute and able to be made fun of salamander-dog with a disgusting face tattoo I could totally do, and that makes for fun interaction art with 06...

I can't decide if I like it better if the term "waterdog / mudpuppy" for salamanders derives from the Nahuatl or if two different cultures looked at a salamander and were separately like "yeah that's a puppy".

That's probably the sort of linguistic question that has no answer, like how nobody really knows why hellbenders are called that. It's probably because they really creeped out the Puritans, but who knows.

And it wouldn't even technically be wrong to call an axolotl / dog hybrid a "mudpuppy" since while it generally refers to that specific salamander at least in the regions of North America it lives in, "mud puppy" and "water dog" also do appear (mostly in fishing bait) as generic terms for salamanders as a whole. Xolotl was also a dog-like god and it's possible that "axolotl" literally translates to "water dog" among other things...what if that's the origin for the English salamander term?

and this also connects slimeboy fish-amphibian-nebulous tetrapod boy ronnie to his canonical dog / wolf motif. it all makes sense. it all works. i feel like i finally understand what all the strings and thumbtacks were getting at

one day, if they haven't already, the Corporate Cute Animal Thinktank is going to come up with the concept of an axolotl / puppy hybrid, and if they don't call them mudpuppies I'm going to be so mad

baby. also looks uncannily like ronald (photo source: ontarionature.org)

mudpuppies should be canon cute animals. they're exactly as cute as axolotls, and the merchandise featuring them as pastel axolotl-puppy hybrids literally writes itself

https://www.buildabear.com/emo-axolotl-stuffed-animal-check-hoodie-gift-set/33524_33521.html

it's literally a ronnie salamander / walking fish / primeval tetrapod. i must have it. i wonder how many limbs it would cost me on ebay. that's him that's the slimeboy (except this is way cuter and has better hair.)

see, this is the larval form of the slimeboy, i.e. escape the fate ronnie, hence the hair. he is now a fully grown and no longer cute anthropomorphic salamander thing. it's not an axolotl it's just a salamander larva. although one could draw a comparison to how metamorphosing axolotls is not healthy for them and typically requires chemical enhancement

figured there'd be a black parade 20th anniversary tour announced sometime soon. not that it's going to be anywhere I am, and MCR tickets are really fucking expensive so I'm unsure if it would be worth it even if it were. Also, MCR fans are (affectionate) something else.

Also, given the chewing noises, "MCR ASMR?" followed by "ASMCR" was my first thought.

https://youtu.be/rBPLXX2fHBE

if we're talking the whole explosion of emo etc. albums that pretty much redefined stylings and mainstreamed the genre ca. 2005-6, black parade is basically THE big one along with the contemporal FOB and PATD releases, with DIYLF and its scene / metalcore / post-hardcore hybrid friends being comparatively little guys appealing to somewhat different audiences at the same time

https://devblogs.microsoft.com/oldnewthing/20220816-00/?p=106994

I assume SSDs don't have resonant frequencies, but rotational drives do still exist and you can still buy them. I wonder what their frequencies are.

If FIR is really going to continue to suck, they might as well commit to the bit and actively try to be physically and/or psychologically destructive to listen to. Course, they do a great job of SAN damage already.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Biofouling

I get why this is a problem economically speaking, but I still can't help but read it as "oh no, oceanic organisms live in the ocean and grow on things we put in there! this is a problem!" ...uh, they were here first; you're the ones fouling it with your electric cables and whatnot

probably bad neopian times comic idea that appeared to me against my will:

[Nera (given name of KingOfTheMusicScene, my Falling In Reverse parody fan Neopet) is at a press conference]

Interview: Mr. Kelrad, everyone's talking about your latest gold record, but there have been some rumors that you have a...checkered past. How do you care to respond to this?

Nera, looking mildly embarrassed: Well, uh, it did use to be one of the only paint brushes you could get on the shop wiz...

[embarrassing escape the fate ronnie, or worse, popular monster 2024 "album" cover but it's a checkered shoyru]

so, this was the original poster of a video I found while doing some Dying Is Your Latest Fashion research earlier today. (Unfortunately, they have been excluded from Internet Archive and are not on archive.today.)

This is from 2007. It fully predates Falling In Reverse, as in, Ronnie wasn't in jail yet. What the fuck does the "falling" part refer to? If it was from after, uh, ca. 2009 (unsure when exactly the From Behind These Walls -> FIR name change happened), it would be obvious, but this is either baffling or prescient. You can't retroactively change a YouTube video after it exists or clip new content into it; you can only trim it. (And you probably couldn't do this as of when this person was active.)

if it was truly random, then congrats to this rando and/or official source from 2007 for predicting the future? I don't know of any other contemporal adjacent bands with "Falling" in their names, and I suspect if they existed I'd know by now. Also, outside of being an FIR reference, which temporally speaking, it COULD NOT BE, it doesn't make any grammatical or otherwise sense. Escape the falling...what?

If one were going to do something in the format of "Escape the fa[*]" and fill in some other clever word, there are more obvious and grammatical things. For that matter, Escape the Fall by itself would make more sense, because Blessthefall. (maybe that's it? and escapethefall.buzznet.com was taken? somehow this seems unlikely especially given mid-00s username sensibilities and how EtF and btf did not meet until Warped Tour '07, which this video technically postdates but not by much.)

There's an obvious answer to another word starting with fa- that could be applied to whatever it was Ronnie and Max had going on, but I'm not going to state it. I'm confident that it was used, most likely not complimentarily, without having to search for it.

Them being a simultaneous Escape the Fate and Blessthefall fan who fused the two names seems like the most plausible non-time travel answer, but I'd still expect someone to go for underscores or numbers if they were committed to that bit vs. changing the verb tense and basically destroying the reference.

Pretty confident time travel isn't real, and if it were, folks would have better things to do with it than mess around with Ronnie, but this makes one wonder. If time travel is, in fact, possible, and messing around with Escape the Fate is a valid thing to do with it (and either "Bethany" or the original owner of that URL knows the secret to it), that is of course extremely compelling.

escape the falling mic stands (aaayyy, i would dab but it is 2025 and people don't do that anymore)

You can't death of the author work when much of the artist's other work is about how your interpretations of his previous work is wrong, you know?

And unlike, well, authors, it is very clear that Ronnie poetically writes as himself, and since he mostly writes about how mean he is and what people think about him, that's basically part of "the work" in itself.

You can't death of the author a guy who's (a) not dead and actively benefiting from what you're doing. once you're listening to songs in ways that don't support him then we'll talk and (b) will overtly tell you what he wants you to think of his work, and attack you if it's not what he does.

Now, Ronnie will retroactively claim he was trying to be funny when there's no evidence of that, but I'm not counting that. He makes it REAL obvious when he thinks he's being clever because he'll pat himself on the back and explain how clever he is. And he definitely hates having his "serious" songs perceived as childish or funny.

We can never fully prove that anything of FIR was fully serious or not without being able to read minds, but it's clear that in terms of framing and how much he loves them, Alone, Rolling Stone, and the solo album are just as "serious" and intended to be taken at face value as good by FIR metrics as, say, Sink Or Swim or any other "serious" song. They're at minimum as serious as FIR gets, and if they are, then you've got no cause to say that the equivalently stupid Bad Guy or Zombified aren't simply because it's pointed out to you that they're musically bad and thematically rancid.

While walking to raging burrito, I came up with a rebuttal to one of the main arguments cited by FIR fans against critics, namely that we just don't get that FIR is meant to be humorous and Ronnie is just a silly little guy and we don't understand satire.

I take Bad Guy, Right Now, etcetera seriously not because I don't understand Ronnie, but because I do. Here are the 3 precepts for my belief, all cited primarily from I Can Explain (the most detailed and authoritative work from Ronnie about Ronnie we'll probably ever get) but backed up in other sources from FIR / band journalism, including contemporal ones.

1. The only FIR songs that have been explicitly stated as meant to be humorous as I can recall are Fashionably Late (title track), Just Like You (title track), Bad Girls Club (what the fuck is wrong with you), and possibly I'm Not A Vampire, or at least its music video.

2. Alone and Rolling Stone, you know, "I've been in rap since I was sitting in Pampers" and "gut you like a fucking avocado", and his solo album (look at literally any song), Ronnie gushes about. He clearly thinks they're cool and badass and expressive and genre-bending genius songs. (Although in the 2024 pre-Ronald interview, he might have finally conceded that Alone is stupid. It still doesn't change that he was blowing its horn for at least 7 years given I Can Explain's release in 2021.)

3. Ronnie HATES being perceived as funny or cute when he's not trying to be.

Alone and Rolling Stone are intended to be serious, or as serious as FIR gets -> Alone and Rolling Stone are some of FIR's stupidest songs, lyrically speaking (equivalent to the likes of Bad Guy or Right Now) -> Ronnie hates being thought of as funny when he's not trying to be, and toots his own horn quite clearly when he is trying to be so we can see how clever he is -> all FIR songs of equivalent or lower stupidity are serious until proven otherwise.

I take FIR seriously in my criticism because, well, FIR clearly does. And what they consider to be funny isn't complimentary either.

if you're a solipsist, but don't know yourself, then you don't understand literally anything you're looking at

absolutely adore the FR april fools. floppy disks! also despite my general disdain for effects as a feature i may have to come up with fandragon excuses to use the 90s tech ones

now, technically, "[Band Name] is [list of members]" is grammatically incorrect, but I'm willing to parse that as a truncated form of "[Band Name]'s personnel is / consists of".

It's an organization. It's made of people, but you say "[Band Name] is" just as one would say, e.g. "People For Pollinators is". The exception is if your band is named "The [plural noun]" in which case it uses plural grammar and presumably each member is a singular noun.

Now, the bands that really confuse me about how to refer to them are the ones whose proper name is just one pluralized word e.g. Architects and Traitors. Both "Architects is" and "Architects are" feel somewhat off.

Mildly interesting observation: Bullet For My Valentine uses plural grammar for themselves. Most other bands don't. Most bands, on the last page / back of their liner notes, list their lineup with "[Band Name] Is". BFMV, at least on Gravity, is doing "Bullet For My Valentine Are", which feels grammatically off. (I am scanning all of my CD liner notes, because what else would I do with my evening?)

yay, I can finally scry what goes on in my brain at all times (flight rising gene that turns the manes / furry bits on floofy dragons into a bunch of snakes + baby dragon that is mostly floof)

diylf playing on loop in here, just a bunch of snakes crawling through the slime

note: neocities file system is case sensitive, but windows isn't, so when uploading capitalized PNGs from snipping tool, change them to lowercase for Neocities

proud supporter of the oxford comma

well, it seems the "too warm in my room" problem has been momentarily solved -- unsure as to why, but it seems that it cooling down and/or raining outside (or maybe someone in the building finally flipped the switch) has made the AC actually start properly cooling

question of the day: who would be best at dealing with ronnie problems? a child psychologist, animal control, or an exorcist? because it sure isn't anyone who works for falling in reverse

ye gods neopets is laggy today

anyway it would sure be nice if you could fish with all your pets at once and didn't have to change to make everyone separately active

Thirty days hath September

April, June, and November

All the rest have 31

Except February because fuck you

ah, spring, when one's fancy turns to It's Too Damned Warm In My Room Again. At least they finally stopped running the heat, but I don't think the AC is actually cooling; it's just blowing. The fan does not really help, nor would opening the window since it's warmer outside. I guess I can try opening the window next time it rains?

you ever think about just how much art there is in the world? there is more music than you could ever listen to in a lifetime just within each genre...